"You have this strange effect on me...

...And I like it."

That song from that Cingular commerical has been driving me crazy. But it is appropriate for today.

I deleted the portion of my entry yesterday about "British Boy", because I thought he and my feelings toward him deserved more digging into.

AS I mentioned. I discovered on Saturday that "British Boy" is not really British. Shot heard around the world. He is actually South African. WHO KNEW? Green eyes, brown hairs, didn't see it coming. But that only makes him like 1000 times more interesting. I have never met anyone from South Africa. He is like 10x more interesting, and mysterious, and full of stories about his life, that I want to know about. And he's that "if he wasn't so awkward, he would be really hot" boys.

Lets be honest. I don't go for the obvious ones. The other guy on the trip was Josh. And he was a typical attractive guy. He had like black hair, and an amazing face. But I think what I didn't like about him was that he was aware of his hotness, so he expected girls to be drawn to him. I ignored him the whole trip for that main reason. I wasn't going to feed into his ego.

There was this boy I used to talk to in high school. We were in the same law class, and we talked everyday, and yadda yadda yadda. He was one of the "attractive one's" and he was also a musician. One day he came in talking about he was signing up for the talent show, and he wanted me to come. I was like "alright" then he was like "you should make a sign for me, and it should be huge, so I can have my own section of girls holding a sign for me" I never talked to him again.

Anyway. I never know how to go about talking to boys. Sure it seems easy to just say "go up to him", but I have that thing in the back of my head, like I can't find anything to say, and that I don't want to give off a wrong impression. But because Kay talks a lot, on the way to the college, South African boys name came up.

The two in the back instantly went "HE IS SO WEIRD!" and started laughing. My heart sunk. They had went on a previous trip with him, and were also the secretaries of the club, so they had more time with him than I have.

Here's the list of some interesting facts.

1) he skips tiles when he walks. I was watching. And he was like skipping two at a time, that he lost his balance a few times.
2) don't say anything negative about South Africa cause he will flip. Mention S.Africa and he will flip. Oh..And don't say he's British, cause I assume he will flip
3) he is pretty cheap. So cheap that instead of buying food at the hotel(on a previous trip) or just going to McDonald's, he hoarded these free little entrees in his mouth. And the we went to the Chinese restaurant and he basically sat(like me) without food, but(unlike me) later picked off of some girls plate.
4) he went all Tom Cruise when Josh said he had ADD and was taking prescription drugs.
5) he laughs when he's nervous. For no reason. At all.
6) He does this thing with his head. Like he's cracking his neck. Except he did like 12 times
7) He goes home EVERY weekend. EVERY weekend
8) Oh he said "who needs friends, they mean nothing to me"
9) And as far as they say he has no interest in a girlfriend. Not because he doesn't like girls. But just cause he has no interest in him . They are discardable.

I was thinking the whole day yesterday that sure it is great that he has this mysterious and exotic past, and his lights up when he talks about home, and sure he can speak 3 languages, and he is extremely attractive, and as Kbryna has mentioned, has the green eye factor. GREEN EYES. But is he too crazy for me....Am I barking up the wrong crazy tree. You should have seen him talking about Sex Trafficking with Kay. I didn't know if he was going to cry or smack her. He was turning so red, I keep glancing back and forth, and waiting to duck at any moment that he's crazy ass decided to smack us or something, just because of his frustrations with the world.

But there is something about his crazy ass that I like. I mean hearing those negative things about him in the car, where pretty much a downer. Hearing that he is acts like a 13 year old because of his awkward social behavior, even more of a downer. How do 13 year olds act? But it makes him not so normal, though Art boy is amazing, I realized how normal he is. But this kid, he's more awkward then me. Surprising. And that makes him like uncharted territory...which is exciting.

But there's something about him, maybe it's because he can speak 3 languages, maybe it's because he's South African, maybe it's because of his dedication to the CAUSE. But whatever it is, his effect has irked my curiosity.

So how do two awkwardly social people talk to each other?

How do you approach someone, who doesn't approach you or for that fact doesn't want to be approached? Where do you locate such boy on a weekday? Who is probably hiding in his room right now.

I make him nervous. He giggled( yes people, giggled, it was not a laugh. It was awkward, hugh pitch giggle) everytime I passed him. Which could be a) a good thing b) a bad thing.

This whole crush could be an absolute disaster. But either way, I feel it is my duty to see how crazy this guy is. Obviously I am not looking for someone who doesn't want a girlfriend, who may be bad at expressing his feelings, who is socially inept. I AM NOT LOOKING FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME. In other words. Because that would just be awful. I kind of need someone to be like "I like you" if we are dating. I don't want to assume that I know his feelings, he kind of has to tell me. I need the cards to be on the table. So I know where I stand, and that I am important in his life

But.

He's a challenge. If anything, I would like to be the girl who snagged his friendship or admiration...Whatever. I see that he a hard shell, which is in turn interrupted as weird(though the skipping tiles thing was kind of weird), so well see how this goes with GREAT_____

I have to approach him with caution though, he talked to Kay easily, but I didn't say anything to him that whole day(mainly cause I thought he was going to smack somebody). How do you approach a scared person? What do you talk about? If he goes all Tom Cruise on me though, I may have to get all "medical doctor" on him. Maybe my new fond Uganda cause will spark some interest?

I can't test the "theory of how to snag a introvert" right now. Art Boys club is tonight. Which kind of sucks because I think.....

I'm getting sick.

Not to change the subject drastically, but I have this weird feeling like I am getting Scarlet Fever. I've had it before, and because I am a freak about getting sick, I have been doing some research, and it ain't looking so good.

Apparently scarlet fever is a sickness that is caused by my lack of immunity towards certain toxins. Like when we lived in New Rochelle, behind the place that was burning cars. I had scarlet fever for two weeks. It's like chicken pox, minus well the chicken pox. It looks like chicken pox but is compounded with a fever, sore throat. yadda yadda yadda.

With the recent tearing down of that damn building across the street, I don't know what the hell is in the air. And the small rash on my arm(you can barely notice it, unless you are well...A weird biology girl), is not a great comforter to my looming worries.

So I've been under the weather for like the past week. And yesterday I was damn right miserable + the Kay thing. Today I feel a little better, but I have to take it easy for the next two weeks, so I can go home for Spring Break. I slept for 4 hours today, and my throat hurts.

So hopefully Art Boy won't decide to fall in love with me tonight, as I struggle to stay awake. And not pass out during whatever movie he is showing tonight.

DAMN FEVER.

*Postscript* Kay can't make it to Movie Club, and seeing that it is cold as hell outside and i don't feel like walking. At all, plans are cancelled. Other than me not being able to see his face. I'm not that disappointed. I don't want my second impression to be my passing out in front of him. I can go to sleep now. THANK GOD.