My loan has not arrived yet and freak out mode has begun.
What runs through my head is that fate hates me and wants me to accomplish nothing in this life.
Unlike having a fun filled summer vacation, I wanted to take summer classes, so I could get closer to be caught up, and have the pleasure of not hearing Marie say "you are so behind..." yadda yadda yadda
It's this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach that makes me think that in two days the loan will not come. I will not take the much needed class this summer, and will have to think that if I had only applied a couple of days earlier I would not be in the predicament that I am in now.
My computer has been sent off because they still have no idea what is wrong with it. The screen is absolutely black and the Geek Squad(their name, not mine) is apparently not that techy so they have to send it to someone who also may not know what is wrong with it.
Shitty shitty middle of the week. I have to begin thinking of what I will do if I cannot attend this session. My mom still has high hopes that it will arrive, that I just need to stop worrying. But my hopes are pretty down and I am two clicks away from booking a plane ticket to anywhere but here.
And now i have to get dressed to watch a stupid movie that i am in no mood to watch. I can't hide my disappointment even from myself.
1 comment:
beckett: RELAX. first thing you do: call financial aid and say "my loan hasn't arrived yet." ask for an emergency loan if necessary. There are ways to stay enrolled pending disbursement of loan. If you've been approved the loan, the school will (should) accommodate you. This happened to a friend of mine in college, and she was able to get emergency loans or something until the actual loan turned up.
IT WILL ALL BE OKAY. i promise.
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