In the Bookstore.

When Mike found out that I would be in the area at the end of May he wrote me an email on Facebook saying that we should meet up and have our usual conversations at the bookstore.

With all the bad things I said about Mike during the fall semester I realized that half of his annoyance arises from his complete inability to realize when it is time to shut up, and my own "quick to find a fault" trait. I am a person who unwittingly keeps her distance. I will find some fault in you, so I don't get to drawn in. So I don't get hurt or damaged. Not the best way to approach relationships I know, but it's something I am trying to work on.

Dealing with Katherine and her weird antics, I grew to appreciate him more and more. So yeah he can sometimes be an ass, but an ass that I am comfortable hanging around with. An ass who is my age, and shares some of my quirks.

He is leaving for Key West tomorrow. Some strange outdoor kind of expedition he is going on. All I know is that it involves a boat, and a captain, and he sounds uber excited about it. I was kind of freaked out by seeing him. I have that fear of awkward silences where there use to be laughter. But upon seeing each other in the bookstore, we went on our normal tangents. He listened to me groan about taking chem this summer, I listened to him talk about XBox 360. It was the most fun I've had just sitting down and talking in a long while.

Of course he mentioned that he pretty much failed all his classes this year. Chem -D, Math- D, Hist-F, Art -B+, and Philosophy-B+. I've haven't calculated that yet, but I fear it is pretty below average. I hope he is here next year. He also showed interest in going to London with me in May(he said January is not a great time), if I can't find anyone to go with. I don't know what this feeling is, excitement I guess.

So me and Katherine are taking Chem together. Though I thought this may be awkward due to some things I wrote to her on my school blog(the school blog is basically life lessons that I think I have learned, not nearly as detailed as this one. Sometimes a paragraph or sentence of what I have learned about life. Just in case anyone thought I was cheating on this one)

I kind of wrote it hoping she would see it. Hoping that it would give me a non confrontational way out of the friendship. I know she read it because on her facebook account she put all these new quotes up, about real friends and yadda yadda yadda, a day after my entry.

But I am being social with her, keeping my distance though. So far I have only talked to her in class, we sit next to each other and are very social. But I won't have lunch with her or go to her house. This bird has to fly solo, and I'm doing a pretty good job of it I think.

My laptop is still broken. Which means I am writing this entry again in the library. It's pretty comfortable in here. And without the distraction of TV I get more done. The summer session actually seems to be going pretty well, my apartment is so cute and cozy. I of course wish I could supply pictures but...No comp. I have two roommates who I have only seen once or twice. We pretty much stay in our own area, and the only way I can tell they are there is if I hear footsteps or muffled voices.

I'll decorate it better in the fall and take plenty of pics.

I'm still having problems deciding on a minor that is just right for me. When I approach the idea of the minor I think: "What kind of job could I get with this minor". History, English, Journalism, and Film are still my top choice, but narrowing them down has become a problem.

Psych pretty much is out of the running. I sit in the class every morning and come to a realization that this is not for me.

I came in thinking I knew it all about who and what I wanted to be, and I have come to a truth that I have no idea. I never had a idea. But it's kind of fun figuring it all out.

Beckett