SUDOKU!!!!

Tomorrow morning we are headed off to my grandmothers house. Being home has been one big adjustment. Unlike being 2 hours away i cannot just hide away in my own room after talking to my mom on the phone. Instead i have to be a lively participatant. There has not been much resting since i got back. The cats follow me everywhere and we have spent more time preparing to go to my grandmothers house then anything else.

Though i like being home, i realize how much i want a place of my own to return to and find solace in. There are just some things in this house that drive me crazy, and that unfortunately i can't escape from. Like my brothers friends who are always here, and that my name is always being called to do, see, or take something. I guess i miss the silence. I guess i miss having my own personal space.

IN the last two days though i have been pondering what i should minor in. I think the whole minor thing is actually pretty important. It's like a backup for the backup. My mom suggested that i should minor in something that requires me to write...Journalism perhaps. Next year will unfortunately be buckle down year and i will have no other choice but to deal with the endless possibilities i have been avoiding or having problem resolving for so long. Hopefully i will have resolved them by this summer.

At this point when i look into what the future holds me for, all i know is that i want to BE somebody. It seems so general to write; but in all honesty when i think about what i will do when i "grow up" it is that i can be somebody. I can make some impact in whatever i'm doing. I'd still like to think i had the little girl dreams of growing up and impacting something or someone.

i have this summer to figure that all out. Until then it is time to just relax and not think of anything except enjoying the next few weeks until summer school.

So to relax i went to the bookstore, of course, and found....SUDOKU!!!!. Now i'm not a crossword person. I'm so bad at those things it is not even funny. Give me a crossword and i will most likely discard it somewhere.

I remember there was an episode of the simpsons ,i think, where Lisa was trying to solve a puzzle that everyone but her got, and of course this drove her crazy cause she was the smart one.

Well that exactly why i don't do crosswords because i am that girl who gets frustrated and starts erasing and possibly cursing over the crosswords. That was until i stumbled on...SUDOKU!!!

It's a crossword with numbers, which is weird cause i hate numbers, and yet i am addicted. 1) the name is just awesome...SUDOKU and 2) i feel all smart doing it. I recommend it for the bored crossword puzzler in all of you.

Mike wrote me and said that he missed his Chem Final. Though it was kind of boring without him in any of my classes(who else did i have to laugh at), i fear that he may not make it to next year. I think there is like some number of classes that you can fail, and if any of my calculations are correct he's bording on 5 failed courses.

Poor kid, i wished him a good summer and hoped that the professor will let him make it up. Which is pretty doubtful but what else was i suppose to say.

I have packing to do. I was suppose to do this earlier but i manage to procrastinate even at home. I'll pack after an episode of medium. MOLLY RINGWALD is in it. My favorite 80's star.

Adios.