...Is by far one of my favorite movies. If you haven't seen it well...GO RENT IT NOW. It's simply amazing.
When i first saw it as a kid i always wondered why Paul Sheldon (played by the amazingly Hott James Caan.), and for that fact all authors, have this thing with writing in complete isolation and silence. I mean the most scary aspect of the movie for me was the whole " No can here you scream" concept. Psycho Annie (played by the wonderful Kathy Bates) was able to get away with tormenting Paul Sheldon with her uber weirdness by using a pivotal writers need...ISOLATION. Though isolation was a need for him to complete his stories, she used it to keep him hidden.
I guess the concept of isolation is weird. It can be absolutely needed to get you're head together, to find yourself, to just enjoy the peace. But it's kind of lonely, sort of withdrawn from the world.
I am learning to balance this two ideals in my life, and am becoming one step closer to being okay with isolation and what it has to offer. Unfortunately, as most of you may know, the part of isolation i like the most is being robbed of me. Though i have not lived with a lot of people, i have got to be living to the loudest, socially active human being in the whole entire world.
It has only been a week and i am already sick of this girl. She is very nice, don't get me wrong, but she is working on a noise level much higher than the average human being. A laugh is not a laugh by a high pitch cackle. A conversation is not a conversation but a screaming match. Having friends over is not a mere 5-6 people but 14-15, and this has been almost every night.
I know...I know...I'm going about this badly. I have difficulty approaching people because i fear coming off like a bitch. I feel that sometimes people take my shyness for bitchiness I don't say much, i stay away from my roommates, and i pretty much keep to myself. In the past i have had this conceived as being snobby. WHICH IS THE FURTHEST THING FROM THE TRUTH.
Unfortunately this makes confronting people horrible for me. I let people walk over me because i'd rather they think i was nice and shy than well...NOT. But the noise is killiing me. I now understand why writers go off into isolation...because there is nothing to distract them but themselves.
I am now faced a dilemna. Deal with this noise situation or accept a room change to a freshman dorm (though it would be a private bedroom). It's been a week since i put in my room change and nothing has opened up. I don't particulary want to move into a dorm with a bunch of freshman girls but i don't know how long i can wait for something to open up (and who knows if that something else is better than what i have now).
I am open for any suggestions. At this point I need them.
Tomorrow is a big day: Back to housing to see what is open, my first day back at work since May, and then Writing Class with Mr. McDreamy.
2 comments:
deal with the noise situation. talk to your roommates, all of them at once, and lay out a few noise ground rules.
The only way they will know they are disruptive is if you tell them. it's hard to do, i know, but once you do it, it'll be easy. i can't imagine you coming off as some crazy bitch, either.
freshmen are going to be noisy. and young. i think THAT environment would be far worse for you than the present one.
do you have an RA?? you could always talk to the RA and get some advice, i guess... (our RAs in college were pretty useless, but i know in some places they actually can be helpful).
i have EXACTLY the same problem of appearing snobby/cold/aloof because of being shy and quiet and introverted.
You're right...I've decided not to leave and will just have to deal with this thing until next semester (something will open up in hippie dorm then).
I kept thinking all last night that leaving would be a cop out on my part, why should i have to suffer and move to a freshman dorm when i am not the problem.
I'll just have to suck it up and be brave, bring up the noise situation like an adult and hope for the better.
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