I thought taking a crap load of summer classes last summer (4 to be exact) would mean that i would have this whole summer to myself. My brother is finally about to move out, and my mom and I are turing his room into a study. A STUDY!!!! I haven't had a summer to myself for a long while. I mean if i'm not in school, i'm at home waiting to go back to school. It would be so nice to be able to read a book, lounge around, lay in the sun, go to the beach, write a story or finally get my damn driving lisence so i can drive some where. Anywhere.
I'm okay with not going to graduate school next semester. At first i was crushed about rejection but then i tried to put a positive spin on it. The time off will give me the time to create a portfolio, get some work experience, or travel. Travel being the big one.
I know time off sucks for some people, i assumed it would even suck for me, but i'm looking forward to a nonstatic life. It will do me some good, i can tell. I really don't have any experience with anything, and even if i end up hating the nonschool life, i'll know why i hated it. I won't have some regret that i didn't take the time off.
Moving is a little frightening. I don't know nothing about new haven. I gotta get a job before someone will rent me an apartment. And did i mention i know nothing about new haven. I also have to have the money to move. Which at this point i'm not even close to having. I keep wavering between moving to CT or possibly traveling for a couple of months. They have all these post grad work abroad opprotunities. And once i get past the Eli Roth inspired fear of traveling, this could be a huge and interesting path for me.
I want to travel. I need to travel. But then again, all the issues i have with moving to Ct, sort of apply to traveling abroad. Money, loan repayments, and where the hell am i going to live.
I was planning on getting some bookstore job at home. Trust me, i don't particulary like the thought of selling a book to someone i knew from high school, and then having to explain "no, i graduated college, i'm just working for the summer until i...move to CT/go overseas." But i need the money, which means i have to work, even if it's in the bookstore.
I was planning on taking two Maymester classes (which are only 3 weeks long). I would then be able to work in June, July, August, graduate at the beginning of August and then start the process of....living.
So today i had to sign up classes, but when i tried to sign up for 2 classes during the Maymester session i was DENIED. Apparently you can only take one class during maymester, but i need 2 humanties to graduate. Whats the point of taking one class in maymester, and another class in June. So now i have to take 2 classes during June, convoluting my plans just a little more. I swear this school wants to keep me here, and put me in more debt than i already am.
I guess it could be worse. And i do generally like the hot summer days in this college town. The gym will be empty, i can attempt to get into shape before summer lets out. I can possibly work at the bookstore on campus which may pay more and also have bundles of magazines for me to look at on my breaks.
And the two classes i have signed up for have something to do with Art. Pretty pictures, pretty teachers.
I can live with that.
Anyway.
I've started a pro/con list for moving and traveling. It isn't going so well. I want there to be this happy medium when i graduate. That i can magically find a cheap, afforable place to live, and work in a job that i don't hate (I'm looking at some publishing companies and art gallery's). If i acted on instinct alone, i would travel, use all the money that i have saved and plan to save and go to Scotland. But....reality is saying that i am not planning that out well. I don't want to spend any more time than i have to at home, and though the experience of being in Europe for a while would be...AMAZING, i think i can find a way to travel and live in Connecticut. I just have to a) have patience and B) make some decisions.
Decisions, Decisions, Decisions and i am not close to any sound answer.
2 comments:
my vote is: work for awhile, save up, then travel. Say: work through the summer and fall and maybe January, then hit the road. Start in Sunny Spain or Italy and work your way north.
This way you get to save money, and you have something to look forward to, and plan for. Because travelling and the coming home to some semi-lame job is going to be VERRRRRRY painful.
new haven is, as you know, a college town. you should be able to find temporary (or permanent) housing with relatively little trouble.
have you ever explained WHY??? new haven?
i want to get a job at a really big publishing company in the city but i can't afford to live there just out of school. Staying with family members is not an option(a screaming baby in my ear not an idea of a good night).
There is a direct train line from New Haven to NYC, so if i happen to find a job in the city i can travel by train. Rent is also cheap in New Haven, and if i don't want to work in NYC(or rather, i don't get a job there) there is probably a lot of work opprotunities in New Haven because it's a college town.
And from what i have seen, via pictures, it's really pretty. A perfect, or near perfect, writing oasis.
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