I do not mean to keep writing these incredibly short posts. I was actually planning on writing about my two days at my new internship. I was going to tell you all about the craziness that is my editor and her small staff of middle aged and worn women. But instead I must bitch about student loans and the fact that my internship application (allowing me to defer my loans until January) was denied on the grounds that the internship is not a medical or dentistry one.
This is a huge What The Fuck from loan lenders. Of course, no one told me this during the 35 minute conversation I had with 4 different people 3 weeks ago about applying for an internship deferment. No one told me this Monday when I called them, or when I called them last Friday. No one told me this when I ask if there was another form for me to fill out. No one at all.
So of course when I called today to make sure my paper work was being processed a nice college student,named Lauren, told me that my application was denied on the grounds that my internship is not for medical or dental school. Not only was it denied but...and here comes the kicker...I am obligated to pay what I owe for August, September and the late fee they added on (which they won't waiver).
I am crushed. I am broke and crushed. I had no other choice but to fork over my incredibly large loan amount, and now I literally have 40 dollars in my account. I wish I was making this up. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I am sitting in the shadow of my tear filled hour on the phone with Lauren, the college student, with absolutely no idea what to do.
I have no money, I get paid tomorrow but it wont help that much. I am in the red, I have suddenly become the starving artist i never wanted to be. Except I don't even have the cool loft (that I can't afford), or the hot starving artist boyfriend (who walks around shirtless for much of the day) or even the works of my art (in this case stories) to glorify the life. Instead I only have the poor and starving part.
3 comments:
Hi,
I just came across your blog (randomly), and I must say, I'm impressed with your writing. Granted, it is in the style of a journal as opposed to a (fictional) narrative or story telling, but the pacing and the "story line" moves the reader along.
It struck me, that you might enjoy transforming this tale of yourself into narrative fiction, where you would have the freedom to craft not only a story-line (factual or otherwise) but also be more creative with character development. Your tale (I've only read a small portion so far) has ample opportunity for conflict, and that, of course, is where the fun reside in fiction.
Just a suggestion. good luck, Bob
see? SEE? what'd I say the other day, about turning your internship into fodder for your writing? Look, mysterious Bob agrees with me!
RE: student loans. they are the worst. even if you die, your "estate" is still responsible for paying back the student loans.
At least you're paid up for September. Now you can focus on making some cash-o-rama, and trying to sort out loan repayments. Can you apply for the hardship deferral? What other options do you have, while you do your internship?
Hugs from me to you.
man things seem to be going down instead of up but just hang in there. all bosses are assholes why? because they can be after all they know you relly on your job to pay rent buy food etc... So they take out their frustrations on us their labor workforce just think of it like this no matter what you do or where you go there is always going to be an asshole wether it be the boss, coworkers, employees, and even customers so just thoughen it out go beckett! see you in space.
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