Sunday, March 15, 2015

Postscript: LIVID!



I love blogging. 
I love writing. 
I love sharing my stories with like minded people. 

The last nine years with Blogger have been incredible and for the most part so have all of you. 

Despite the amount of personal shit I share on this blog I do not and will not tolerate anyone who misrepresents my 'posts' as some perverse insight into my life. And because I am not above making an example out of anyone who crosses that personal boundary, the exchange below (i'm talking to you Adrian with no blog) is an example of what is NOT acceptable on any fucking level.

If you are reading this blog just to get off on some girl sharing her life stories (interestingembarrassing, and personal) this is not the space for you. I can suggest some other places on the internet where those needs can be meet. I appreciate feedback, I appreciate support and hell I have even requested and then appreciated all the diverse advice handed down to me.

I do not and will not appreciate vulgarity and or insensitivity on anything I post here.

My intention in writing these post is not to amuse or belittle everything that I've gone through and I am not above shutting this blog down to avoid responding to ridiculous ass comments. Moving forward I will blast anyone who takes advantage of my space. This blog encapsulates less than half of what goes on in my life and anyone who thinks my whole life story is represented here needs to move elsewhere for their 'entertainment'.

This is non negotiable. There will not be a second warning. 

~BAH

Blogger adrian said...
It was entertaining to read.

I really liked the shower episode. I can't believe you two didn't fuck there, that would have been a very happy ending, considering you made it seem like you never had a chance with Sean.
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Blogger Beckett Amelia Hughes said...
Adrian: Yikes Adrian! first rule of this blog is that my entries aren't 'episodes' or entertaining' fodder. I've had this blog for nine years and the reason I keep it public is because I want to share my experiences with like minded people who are sensitive to the material I post here. Obviously there is a lot of things I leave out for privacy sake so when I do decide to post something it is to relate and share with a community that has been very supportive. Unfortunately I am not too keen on where you're comments are going and I must say that my experiences with Sean, however entertaining they were to read, was a traumatic one and not one i'd expect anyone to talk about so crudely. I am not sure if you are a new reader to this space or someone who normally doesn't comment... I am also not sure if you are being crude on purpose or if you are trying to incite me to make this blog private for readers who can relate and who are not just prodding into some strangers life for giggles... but I do not take lightly to anyone misrepresenting anything I write here. I also do not appreciate any disregard to my life and the stories I wish to share. Sorry buddy, but if that is the reason you are reading this blog, then Everything Was may not be the space for you.
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6 comments:

adrian said...

I'm very sorry if i upset you, english isn't my first language and i only use it to post online, so my filter is a bit off.

I remember reading this blog back in 2009-2010 but back then not a lot of stuff happened so i stopped, but just found it again, and i'm very happy you are still writing, so i spent like 3 hours in a row just reading all the stuff i missed and it was very enthralling and i enjoyed it so i wanted to give a comment but i messed up because i was kind of in my "youtube comments" mode and i was rude and i apologize.

Perpetua said...

Dang. I'm just so sorry you have to deal with this. Hugs for you, GTFO for anybody who attacks this blog. Though I have to say, I sort of wonder if "Adrian" is someone you know? A relative...or significant other?...of Sean? Because it is kind of weird that you've been blogging for YEARS (and years and years), and all of the sudden you get that kind of jerky comment on a Sean-related post? Odd. But I'm paranoid as hell, so... :)

In other news, YAY YOU for the new job! Such great news!!

B.Amelia said...

Kat said the same thing and if that's the case I am going to have to make this blog private Asap. But I it were a relative of Sean or his S.O I don't think they'd be more appalled than anything else and Adrian's comment suggested he wished i'd been fucked (or at least wrote about it)by Sean. The whole thing was just off in poor taste. I think 'adrian' is just a stranger who lacks tact tbh but it still makes me weary posting here.

And Yay! Thanks! I am super excited about said new job and making money.

denise jordan said...

What a shame that some idiot feels free about coming to this "sacred" space to spew such vile comments. Your regular readers understand and appreciate the details you share with us. It has to be some kind of total disrespect to pick out one incident, and then try to pervert and cheapen what took place. A true reader of this space knows that the experience adrian wrote about in no way compares to the intensity of numerous hurdles you faced with Sean. Be gone from here all idiots AND SICKOS!!! So sorry this had to happen, Beckett.

B.Amelia said...

Denise: i feel like a huge bitch for having to write this post. And I def don't want Adrian to become a punching bag on this space. I just rarely receive comments such as the one he posted I just wanted to make sure it didn't become a habit. Anyone who has been reading this blog for a long time recognizes that this is a literal journal for me not just a space where I right my torrid confessions with the hopes to generate attention. Whether it's Sean or Marie or general life stuff the experiences I write about help me confront and deal internally because it is hard for me to do so with my friends and family outside of this space. I respect and value everyone who has responded with sincerity and tact to the things I write about. It allows me to be as open as possible in written form.

B.Amelia said...

Adrian: I definitely accept your apology and I don't think you meant any harm (or insult) in what you posted.

Everything I post here is very intimate and personal which I know makes the lines very blurry when I have discussed relationships, sex or Sean. While I completely understand that things I share here can be read as entertainment, it is at the end of the day experiences that I am living and learning from daily. Which is why I took offense to the Sean comment because what I wrote here was only half of our story and my relationship with him was, as Denise noted, was intense and a little more complex than wanting to or getting fucked by him.

I still intend to write as much as I can here. And I do hope that you continue to read if this space is something that generally intrigues you. I have made great friends here and the support has saved my life in many ways. So i don't want this snafu to deter you from connecting with me through these post. I just ask that you remember every once in a while that there is a awkward, shy and generally private girl behind the words you are reading.

~Becks