You Know It's Hard Out Here For A Pimp.

Yesterday my English professor decided that instead of reading another long and boring story about rural America (thanks Mark Twain) we would instead watch Hustle & Flow . If you haven't seen the movie the plot is about a Pimp (Djay) who dreams of getting out of his down trodden life, so he attempts with the the help of old friends, a few prostitutes, and church fairing guy, to create music about his life that is both raw and inspiring.

I was hesitant when she listed this movie on the syllabus but only because i am not a fan of Terrance Howard. My mom is completely in love with this man after we saw the movie crash. I however have a conflicting attraction to him based on his amazing face but tormented by him being in every movie possible. He plays a bad guy and i hate him, then he plays a good guy and i love him. I don't know what to do with Terrance Howard but right now after seeing this movie i am kind of smitten with him. Despite his character probably pimping me out in real life.

Anyway the whole semester we have been dealing with rural America. Being a semi-city girl i cannot understand the whole connection to the country. I find solace in the noise, and reading about rural poverty, racism, sexism was kind of a downer. I also had to sit through a class with annoying guy all morning, who only got worse from my last description of him.

On Thursday she warned us that the movie dealt with things that some of us may be uncomfortable with. Prostitution, drug use, language....crap which i totally dig in movies. The only person i thought would be uncomfortable with the movie was the girl who is a religion major who sits next me. She is the sweetest girl ever, with a really soft voice, and she knows a shit load of stuff about every religion.

So i was shocked to show up yesterday to see that she was there but that ANNOYING GUY decided not to watch the movie (she offered an alternate assignment to whoever didn't want to watch Hustle and Flow). He spent the whole semester saying negative, off the wall, borderline racist stuff and then he totally wimped out and decided that Hustle & Flow was unfit content. Despite his whole semester of spewing UNFIT CONTENT. I didn't get it, he watched A Streetcar named Desire with Brando, he came when we watched Breakfast in Tiffany with Hepburn but you insert Memphis rap and he's a big no show.

Jackass.

Despite my love/hate relationship with Terrance Howard, Hustle and Flow was an amazing movie. By the end of it we were all chanting "Whoop that Trick"(despite not wanting to whoop any tricks) even the religious girl was quoting lines and lyrics.

Today wet talked about the movie and wouldn't believe how much symbolism is in it, which made the movie even MORE amazing. And guess who decided to show up today, dressed probably by his mother and eating Cheez-It's during class. ANNOYING GUY. When i was walking to class he rode past me on what has to be the oldest bike ever. I really dislike this guy.

But today must have been the one class where he had nothing to say, and you could tell it irritated him beyond words. He tried to chime in only to be interrupted by someone who was like "you didn't even watch the movie". It was beautiful way to end that class, and despite wanting to pull my hair out or kick Annoying Guys ass I'm happy i took it. I mean now i can say "It's hard out here for a Pimp" during stressful situations.

Oh Yeah.

We turned in our group projects today for Business class but unfortunately the person in our group who was suppose to bring in our report called and said he was running late. Molly, the girl in our group, called him and just told him to bring it to the professors office because class had only lasted 20 minutes and then we all left. Hopefully he got the project there because we are all screwed if he doesn't. I'm not too worry, i figure since his grade is on the line along with the rest of ours then he will do his part and turn it in.

Summer Session is officially after i hand in my 11 page paper tomorrow, and i cannot believe i made it. I've taken 12 credits, hopefully will have a 4.0 GPA this summer and will start school in less two weeks as a senior ( i just like saying that i am a senior. I've earned it). Nervous: Yes. Excited: Yes. Hoping for a Good Year: HELL YEAH.

My biggest thing now is deciding whether to go back to therapy in the fall . I know that i would like too, but I am kind of sad because Casey won't be my therapist anymore (she was only here for the year and then headed back to school in Oregon). She referred me to her friend Toby because she thinks i will work best with him, but i don't know how i will feel talking about my problems with a dude. I barely know how to carry conversation with guys in the elevator so bearing my heart and soul to some man is pretty scary.

I'll probably end up going back, i just have to but the nerves behind me. I know i say this every semester but i honestly want it to be better than then the last and i am going to put effort in actually doing that.