I am so ready for fall break i can't even hide my extreme boredom in class.
I have one week until break but before then i have a midterm, a test, a paper, a meeting, and i agreed to work extra hours this week to help my boss out of a jam. Yeah i am pretty much screwed.
Of course i am having a problem with the new people i work who don't seem to really like working that much. For the four hours i worked yesterday i was the only one of the floor shelving books, while everyone else decorated the office with Halloween stuff (literally a task one person could have done)
When i walked into the office everyone made the face like "oh shit we totally forgot to tell her or we totally didn't want to tell her we were having a jolly good time in the office" while my overworked ass was downstairs putting up books.
I was a little pissed yesterday because of this. As i shelved books on the empty floor except for the one creepy dude in a leather jacket, i felt excluded from the gang that was forming.
I talk to people at work, but then i go off and do my job. I mean my boss is stressed out as it is because people don't work, so i attempt to be the one person she can depend on.
Of course despite having a so-so relationship with my coworkers i get along well with my boss...who is like 20 years older than me.
I don't understand why i get along with people older than me. Is it a conspiracy or something. I get called mature all the time, and while others may take this as a compliment i F*cking hate it.
So far Wise has done anything for me socially. I'm feel too young to hang out with people much older and too wise to hang out with people my own age. It's a lose lose situation. I got to find the balance, i just don't know how.
Time to study, and then drown my restlessness in a bottle of apple juice.
Therapy tomorrow. Yeah?!!??!!
In other totally unrelated news...i've been internet searching for some Tibetan Prayer flags. They are the most beautiful things i have ever seen. They are usually hung outside for the wind to blow against them but i was planning on hanging them in my dorm. I hope that doesn't go against their purpose so much .
This nature class is really having a profound affect on me. I feel like i am becoming a tree hugger and i don't know why. I feel so peaceful outside, and i just got all inspired to go on some trails and chill with the trees for awhile (well the trees of my campus).
I want to at least figure out more about the prayer flags before i buy them. But now i want to go Tibet. Geez.
2 comments:
prayer flags: the prayers are written on the fabric squares, and are hung out to be absorbed into the world through the weather. the prayers are meant to go out to the world/up to heaven in a natural process.
i think they're beautiful, too.
and i've always gotten along much better with people older than me, been called mature, etc etc etc. "mature" often is what people mean when they ask me: "don't you like to have fun?"
my money is that your coworkers just started their decorating after you'd left, and used it as an excuse to not do real work. i doubt it was a plan, or that you were left out on purpose.
prayer flags are a good thing.
and i wish *i* got a fall break. ugh.
ps. andrew bird was amazing tonight. very excellent stripey socks.
Do you think it would be sacrilegious to put them in my dorm? I want some so bad(found a website that sells them) but there is no way i can hang them outside,and i don't want to go against tradition.
I want to see Andrew Bird in concert SOOOO bad. Does he come to Pittsburgh every year? Cause i can never catch him when he's on tour.
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