I did it.
As planned i talked to Sean last week about wanting to 'end things' with him. He tried to convince me that i was being irrational and that i shouldn't stop being his friend due to distance (because in his mind distance is the reason i wanted to end things)
After talking for a few hours he pretended everything was okay again and told me he was sorry for not putting in more of an effort since boot camp.
So of course like an idiot, i forgave him because he said he would make things right.
8 days later and nothing has changed. Absolutely nothing. He hasn't made any attempts to be present in my life. And i'm done waiting around for a boy who the Navy can't even mature.
So i deleted him from facebook. I blocked his number from my phone. I took every Sean related item from my room, put it in a box and shoved it under my bed...which if you know me is the place of no return.
I am done. I did all i could do. I give him my best self and it wasn't good enough.
So it's time to move on
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4 comments:
oh wow. wow. proud of you (and impressed) that you blocked/unfriended. obviously those aren't necessarily permanent, but still. i hope you are doing okay - feeling okay, etc. Hopefully, you will feel better day by day, without the roller coaster of Sean's what-the-fuckery. and i'm going to say this again for the millionth time - make it a goal for the summer to go on some dates or something. doesn't have to be any big deal or anything weird. just okcupid or whatever, meeting for coffee kind of things. i think the experience will be good for you. obviously - i hope obviously - i'm not suggesting you jump right into that tomorrow. but in a month, or two. summer's a good time for this kind of thing. oh sean, you fucking weirdo, you are LOSING OUT. but i'm glad you have Made a Decision and Taken Action.
now go treat yoself this weekend as a reward.
Attagirl!
Please, please don't say that you weren't good enough. You were good enough. Better than just good. Sean is a person who cannot see who belongs in his life and who doesn't, who is good for him and who isn't. That's not your fault, and the best thing you could possibly do for yourself is to stop trying.
I'm so glad that you were able to think of yourself first.
And I so (so so so so so) agree with KNK. You need to go on dates. OK Cupid is free, and it is FUN.
This is good news. Now you can spend your energy on better things/people than Sean.
Stay strong! You deserve better.
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