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My dad called yesterday....AGAIN!!! though this doesn't seem like much to the average being human, to my family it HUGE. When my dad usually calls it's out of the blue, we talk for like 45 minutes, boxing...laughing most of the time, and the we know that he won't call for another 2 months.

But yesterday while i was studying for the chemistry exam(which killed me today i must say) i got a call on the cell from my dad.

I was shocked, 2 times in a row, it's like a record or something. My dad is sort of a lives in his own little 70's inspired world. His like a philosopher, a very eccentric philiosopher. But yesterday he asked me dad questions. Like if i was doing okay, and sudying hard, and eating the good food, and to be careful.

What?

Is that the same dad? Maybe the death of grandma is letting him know that he has to step up. I told my mom and she was as shocked as i was. It was weird. I mean i'm so use to be the strong, nonweilding one, making sure everyone is okay in the family, that it was weird for him asking me if i was okay. Like i thought it was my job to ask him that. I think fathers play a big role in our development. Like the make us feel safe and whole, and without them in our lives there is always this guard and hole in us. Its like i don't know how to be taken care of...i don't know how to just let someone take care of me, cause i'm so use to doing it myself. I can people can change.

Due to my uber tiredness, i have decided this blog will be "who is Beckett". I had to write that english essay, and i used the song by sia that i somehow interpreted as a song about accepting yourself cause when you don't that is when you get lost.

so here's to accepting my quirks, because sometimes i loath them

Beckett Amelia Hughes
1) I was born March 1, 1986. I was suppose to be born on my moms birthday, but she and the doctors said i came out when i felt like it
2) deathly afraid of Icebergs.
3) i love paintings by Edward Hopper
4) When i was younger i joined a church because i had a crush on the preacher
5) I am a plain eater. I like hamburger w/out cheese, i only eat cheese pizza, and the people at Subway know my order by heart: White Bread,Turkey, American Cheese, Lettuce, Tomato, Oil and Vinegar and Extra Mal. (it's really embarassing when there are a bunch of people in line though. I'm not a Subway addict or anything)
6) i wear the same checkered shoes everyday
7) i hum when i eat
8) i eat skittles from grossiest to yummiest(yummies being red)
9) My first kiss was by a boy name Jason, who i liked because he reminded me of the green power ranger(i was like 8)
10) admire Che(though he was communist and hung with Fidel)
11) Broke Marie's finger once by throwing a basketball, and missing the hoop horribly
12) Am very clumsy and have bumped into more doors, tripped on more sidewalks then humaningly possible.
13) in the 5th grade i convinced my friends i was a Vampire Slayer(damn you Buffy)
14) got detention for a week for stuffing tennis balls down my shirt in the 4th grade(my mom doesn't even know that)
15) have had Scarlet Fever twice in my lifetime, and almost died from it when i was younger.
16) in the 6th grade i was convinced that the Pet Store was feeding the aminals dangerous chemicals, so i pretended like i was from Australia(accent and all) and was investigating the store(my mom won't let that one down.)
17) in kindergarten i called 911 and told them about a boy i didn't like and if the could go arrest him
18)For the past 2 years i have dressed up a Tinkerbell for Halloween.
19) i use to have extremely long hair, but have opted for a shorter hair cut since.
20) in 5 years i see myself: In medschool, in Philadelphia, in an apartment, with a cat or a dog...oh with a volvo.
21) i've never been in a fight but i have been in verbal arguments( and once i was that kid who yelled "FIGHT" during an someone else's fight)
22) i have reading glasses that i hate to wear
23) have fallen asleep in a bathtub, while studying math(i read in a book that if you study in the bathtub it would somehow make you concentrate more, it didn't)
24) loved the movie grease.
25) When i was 7 i threatened my brother and cousin(who was babysitting) that i would run away, i packed my sleeping bag and headed around the corner. After being bored out in the backyard, i tried to get back in but they locked me out.
26) i have a small, birth mark on my belly.
27) i'm addicted to chapstick
28) I was almost skipped up a grade
29) I put quaters in other people's meters
30) I feed the pigeons outside my window.

Goodnight.