I'm happy to say that my adapter arrived on Thursday while i was at best buy deciding which new Cd to buy(ended up with Arctic Monkeys).
Luckily my mom was home and the fed ex guy didn't leave the dreaded "sorry you weren't home to pick up your package" note, which i always hate.
The new year so far has treated me fairly, besides the computer meltdown.
In a week i will be returning to school. So far it's the thing i have been looking forward too the most. I have gotten so use to my lovely decorated room full of posters, and i miss it.
This break was not far from family arguments, which i of course I tried desperately to dodge with all my might. Unlike Marie, whose phone calls i can just ignore when i don't feel like hearing how wonderful and great her life is going, it is much harder to hide from the people you live with.
Every year the same conflicts arise...learning how to adjust to the three very different people forming three very different lives under the same roof. As i attempt to develop the strength in my wings to fly, and my mother begins to develop a life apart from her now growing children, my brother seems to be stuck. No matter how many times we extend our hands to help,
he manages to constantly shove it away and do what he pleases.
I'm beginning to wish i had an older sister. Brothers are difficult and i don't think i will ever understand them or at least i won't understand my own brother.
On my growing list of things i wish to accomplish , having a closer bond with my brother is one of them.
This year i have decided not to make resolutions.
1) because i never follow through with them and 2) because then i feel horrible for never falling through with them. Seriously it's like we set ourselves up to feel like crap by week 2 of the new year because we abandoned the diet plan, stop smoking oath, and any other bad habit we wish to break.
Resolutions never seem to be a list of good things we wish to continue doing throughout the new year, but bad things we can't escape from. I have series of bad habits i wish to break.
Luckily my mom was home and the fed ex guy didn't leave the dreaded "sorry you weren't home to pick up your package" note, which i always hate.
The new year so far has treated me fairly, besides the computer meltdown.
In a week i will be returning to school. So far it's the thing i have been looking forward too the most. I have gotten so use to my lovely decorated room full of posters, and i miss it.
This break was not far from family arguments, which i of course I tried desperately to dodge with all my might. Unlike Marie, whose phone calls i can just ignore when i don't feel like hearing how wonderful and great her life is going, it is much harder to hide from the people you live with.
Every year the same conflicts arise...learning how to adjust to the three very different people forming three very different lives under the same roof. As i attempt to develop the strength in my wings to fly, and my mother begins to develop a life apart from her now growing children, my brother seems to be stuck. No matter how many times we extend our hands to help,
he manages to constantly shove it away and do what he pleases.
I'm beginning to wish i had an older sister. Brothers are difficult and i don't think i will ever understand them or at least i won't understand my own brother.
On my growing list of things i wish to accomplish , having a closer bond with my brother is one of them.
This year i have decided not to make resolutions.
1) because i never follow through with them and 2) because then i feel horrible for never falling through with them. Seriously it's like we set ourselves up to feel like crap by week 2 of the new year because we abandoned the diet plan, stop smoking oath, and any other bad habit we wish to break.
Resolutions never seem to be a list of good things we wish to continue doing throughout the new year, but bad things we can't escape from. I have series of bad habits i wish to break.
Bad Habits include:
1) not eating more vegetables
2) really bad study habits(thanks late night tv)
3) Dressing like Mary Kate Olsen
4) obsessing over Rock Stars(Sufi)
And the list can go on.But making a list of the bad habits that need to be change and making a resolution that i will work on them, means i will undoubtedly break them during the year. I'm saving myself from failure in all honesty in just not making one.
1) not eating more vegetables
2) really bad study habits(thanks late night tv)
3) Dressing like Mary Kate Olsen
4) obsessing over Rock Stars(Sufi)
And the list can go on.But making a list of the bad habits that need to be change and making a resolution that i will work on them, means i will undoubtedly break them during the year. I'm saving myself from failure in all honesty in just not making one.
But that's just how i see things. I have instead opted to approach the new year a little differently from my old friend Dr. Seuss.
My baby cousin is going to start a program to prepare kids for pre-school . Apparently it's a pre-pre school. My mom is thus sending a care package because she likes sending them. I of course suggested putting in the Dr.Seuss book "Oh, the Places You'll Go", because i heard it was a story designed for every life starting journey.
Surprisingly i have never read this story before, or i don't really remember reading it. I figured I'd check it out at the library first before buying it for her.
For a person who always feels like she is on a journey, i instantly became attached to this book. And so instead of the whole resolution thing, i rather approach the year just as Dr. Seusss writes. Equipped with the goods to go somewhere great, just beginning on the journey to do so.
I mean if Dr. Seuss says i can do it, who i am to question it.
"You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go...
So, be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your Mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!"
2 comments:
the combined wisdom of Dr Seuss and Mr Rogers still gets ME through the day....incidentally, Mr Rogers is a great esteem boost. He thinks you're special just the way you are - and sometimes hearing that is all you need.
you dress like mary-kate olsen??? hmmmm. at times that could be awesome; other times, disastrous.
honestly, most days it is more disastrous than awesome.
I'm beginning to get the hang of the look though, trade in baggy rock t's for fitted ones, and i don't look like a fashion mess.
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