I had a dream about vampires last night.
For some reason the apartment complex that i was living in became infested with those blood suckers, forcing everyone down to the laundry room (located in the basement) where me and the rest of the residents started turning on each other, as the vampires made there way down to us.
By the time they reached us only me, the kid from August Rush( i don't know why) and some dude were the only survivors (your perfect nuclear family concieved from chaos) of the apartment. By the time we made it out, the news and government where already camped out side, reporting that our apartment was the only apartment complex in the metroploitan area overrun by vampires but the violence from which the residents turned on each other was the worse they had ever seen or documented.
According to Dreammoods.com (a highly reliable source. ???) Dreaming of a vampire symbolizes:
a)seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death.
b)depiction of someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful.
c)decisions about sex and losing your virginity.
d)that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained.
Seeing that i had therapy on Friday where i confessed that i desperately want connections and love, but feel that i am not worthy of them, i think i can cross a, b, and c...and go directly to my good old friend D.
After i continued on making my confessions to him (which he let me drag on about well over the 45 minutes), he sat back in his chair and said "Holy Shit, this has been a very good session"
I'll have to expand about it more when i get back from class, or apparently when i get back from slaying damn vampires.
3 comments:
You have a charming vulnerability.
I've written quite a bit about dreams, and blood--and posted some. I continue to be fascinated by our dreams--but that's for another time.
Your dream does mean something, Hughes--but I dare not attempt to interpret it in a comment post.
Also--I've spent approx. 4 years in and out of psychotherapy (currently out for over a year). My own sessions began to turn into confession--which isn't such a bad thing--that's part of what talk therapy is.
The problem we ended up having was that after a year or so we became friends--we were simply having nice conversations--and I was paying her a considerable sum to be my friend.
Hypnosis--by a certified hypnotherapist--might be an option for you to consider.
And vampires--I tend to lean more to a through c--although I am a bit drained.
You now have me curious about what your interpretation would be, especially if you are understander of dreams. I try my hardest with them, but sometimes i miss the huge picture.
My therapist is wicked awesome. I feel bad because i've opened up to him in the past, but sometimes i've held back. I mean the first couple of sessions all we talked about were my frustration with writing.
I think he's just happy that i am starting to talk to him more about my anxiety. That i'm letting him into my head completely because i guess in some sense i am letting me him (through my openess) know that i need his help, which is hard for me to ask for.
I wouldn’t pretend to understand dreams. I can interpret dreams as I do poetry—but it’s all reader-response: I don’t know enough about you yet to plumb the depths of your subconscious, and I have precious little to work with. We’ve never met, and I’ve yet to read as many of your posts as I would like.
All I know is that you have a cool name for your blog, we have some of the same interests and problems, you love to write, and you have a cute picture up on your profile. I’m trying to remain anonymous—all I can do for the time being is give hints here and there as to what I might look like.
I might be a 400lb. toll booth operator with an interest in modern poetry for all cyberspace knows.
And then there are so many variables: emotional, spiritual—biological.
I might work with your dream in one of my own posts, with your permission. I promise to share some of my own, just to make things fair.
Your therapist: What do you have to lose? Tell him everything. Don’t be afraid. You should be a little anxious going into a session, but you shouldn’t feel intimidated.
Do you trust him? You have to get over any embarrassment he evokes. It’s possible you would make more progress with a female therapist.
I’m glad you’ve made progress with your writing.
My experience: Don’t hold back. I know I need help. Everyone needs help; perhaps our problems are a little more intense than those of others.
Your writing: Just out of curiosity, I’d love to know what your goals are.
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