Leaving Prematurely

So today is the day I have been dreading. In less then 4 hours I will be in a cab headed to the airport.

I prematurely said goodbye to my Aunt and Michelle (I teared up with this goodbye) though I still have a note to pen to my aunt, telling her how much fun I had here and that in the future (august) I may (will) need a place to stay until I find an apartment. Grad school is out folks and I have to move on.

Everything people say about New York is true. This place is a fucking hard place to live. It's expensive, the people are tough, and sometimes you wonder what it's all for. What's the point of struggling so hard for nothing more than being able to say that you live here. But outside of the down points, this place is amazing. I dread leaving (even though I will return soon) because this place has tested me more than I could have ever asked for.

I've actually made friends, I actually don't hate my life, and for once I am comfortable with being completely uncomfortable. I am not the same person who moved up here a year ago. This is neither a bad or good thing. I am just altered by my experience and grateful for all of it. I know I am writing as if I am never coming back to this place. In all honesty I am just sad that my life is going to be on hold for a good month.

I've staked my claim here, and determined that this is a place I want to be. Be it a year or more. Time to finish packing. I also have to return some very late library books. Bitches are going to kill me for keeping their books out for a few more days. I wanted to finish up the Virgin Suicides...which is an amazing book.

I will be sans computer (for real) until next week. Best Buy said it would take 3 weeks until my computer is returned to me, and it's only been 2.

Until Then

Becks