That Was The Worst Chritsmas Ever!

I had to work today. Yuck.

I hate retail because it's during the holidays when you really realize how un-adult your job really is. Especially when people ask if your store is open Christmas Day, as if we (booksellers) have nothing better to do with ourselves then sell books to people.

I was at the cash register all day (we were open from 11-6) and though time sort of flew by I was ready to come home and crash. I didn't get out of the store until 8, which means I clocked in an eight hour day. I hope I get a really good pay check next week.

You would think that being on my 'own' for the first time would make this a depressing and lonely Christmas. But after living with a relative who ignored me for the past 6 months, having the day to myself opening presents, watching tv and eating food ( I bought Parmesan chicken from a restaurant) is going to be awesome. I am looking forward to tomorrow.

After Thanksgiving, Christmas is my favorite holiday. I mean outside of the gifts I like the feeling you get around this time of the year. So yeah,baby Jesus may have been born on Christmas day AGES ago but it doesn't mean I can't celebrate the year that I have had.

New York has a way of making me feel like the luckiest girl in the world sometimes. Outside of the shit retail job, the disappointment from family (my aunt. my aunt. my aunt), and the never ending headache that is student loans.... I have accomplished so much in my time here. And when I walk down the streets, blanketed with snow surrounded by friends who like me and family that continue to support me, I feel all sorts of lucky...dare I say even blessed.

This will be my first Christmas alone, and if all works out my last. But this year has been great, weird and interesting but for some reason i am grateful for it. I have things to look forward to next year: I went on an awesome second interview with the Nonion two days ago, I have decided what I want to be when I grow up (a supervising producer for television. More on that later) I have a roof over my head, I am applying to grad school (again), and yeah, strides, I am making them. I feel good about the future. I feel, for once, confidant about it.

Christmas is less than 2 hours away, and I am excited. My friend and his girlfriend invited me over for Christmas tomorrow, and the landlady said I could come eat dinner with her and her family.With these invitations over my head, I have that warm christmasy feeling I have not felt in a long time. Retail has a way of destroying that but regardless of the current suckassness of my job, I feel good. I know that things are going to get better, I can feel it.

Anyway. I got a very awesome present in the mail today. I didn't know if I would get it in time for Christmas but I did. I can't wait to listen to it, and then write all about my epic MixCd! But until then....

Merry Christmas.

Becks