April Showers!

And it was so sunny last week?

Today I woke up to rain. Lots of it. Of course, I love-love-love the rain and didn't mind being trapped inside the house all day.

Actually I preferred it. I had some tentative plans with people at work today but there is something about cloudy skies and rain drops that do it for me. I didn't want to do anything outside of staring at it all day.

So I cancelled those plans. And then I read some books, listened to music and wrote. If there was a part time job like that (because I couldn't do that everyday, it would take the pleasure out of it) I would apply in a heart beat.

Lately I am trying to catch up on reading more books. When I first moved to South Carolina I had absolutely no friends. Most of my junior high and high school years were spent talking to people at school but not really having a social life.

Because of this I spent most of my weekends a) watching lifetime movies with my mom in the living room or b) reading until I couldn't read anymore. I could start and finish books in the same day. I even had a special spot in my house. Right in front of the window in my room laying on my stomach. It was amazing!

However once I graduated high school, reading went from being a hobby to something I was required to do. So I stopped reading for fun. I mean I will find a book every once in awhile that I have to finish (Columbine by Dave Cullen, Informers by Bret Easton Ellis) but for the most part I can spend hours in the library, check out a handful of books and finish none of them. Yeah. It's pretty bad.

Recently I got an advance copy of Bret Easton Ellis' new novel. I don't know how much I am allowed to say about it. If anything at all. But whatever, it's just my opinion after all. His new novel takes place 20 years after the events in Less Than Zero. I can see what he is attempting to do. Revisit old characters whose habits remain the same. But it pains me how cliche it all seems to be now. Where generational references created an atmosphere in Less Than Zero (that in all honesty I spend time trying to master in my own writing) it seems super forced in this new novel. Like when he mentioned watching the The Hills and using an IPhone, I cringed. Cringed! I fear that in the last half of the book I will see some sentence where he references Facebook. Then I'll have to throw the damn book out the window.

All day I tried to read it. All day I wanted to finish it. But I am only half way through and I know finishing this novel entail Will. Will I tell you. It's not that it's bad, but there are moments when I am reading and I think 'really, was the mention of an Iphone necessary!, you could have just said I picked up the phone' When I couldn't force my eyes to read anymore, I watched another episode of Dr. Who and checked out plane ticket prices to England (almost a grand, there must be another way).

I have absolutely no hours this weekend (3 days, all closing shifts spaced out so far that I barely see cause to be there) but I don't mind. Outside of the money thing, I like having a break from that place. I am really in a funk about new york, work, and my life right now. My need for escape is reaching an all time high and I hate feeling stumped. About what to do next, about which turn to take, about how strong I need to be. And of course I am feeling all sorts of stumped lately. But for some reason the rains alleviates that feeling for a while. Only for a little while. but long enough for me to re-group and continue.