There is a dumb restaurant moving next door to the book store and they have set up a hiring booth right outside the entrance. But after tonight's revelation they should have just asked everyone currently working at the bookstore if they wanted a job because it seems that is the current trend a Le Sad Store.
I just learned that 3 people have decided to apply and subsequently work at the new restaurant next door, opting to take a significant pay cut in order to escape the hell that has become the state Le Sad Store (i sort of like this name for the bookstore. I'm keeping it).
Every since word of this restaurant opening there have been small rumblings that most of the current staff would jump ship and apply next door. Management has drastically changed the atmosphere at work and if you weren't happy before...well this new regime isn't going to help. I guess it's not a huge shock. When people aren't threatening to quit and walk out on the spot they are complaining about everything.
I've done it too. Last week I couldn't even hold back my frustrations. I was pissy and sour faced and I don't even know how I got my stupid (and small) raise seeing how miserable I've been the last few weeks. And I guess it's sort of weird to realize that everyone else is in the same rut but that they are doing something about it.
I refuse however to go from one retail job to another. That I will not do. I honestly do not see the benefit of one day selling books to hoping I get great tips at the end of the night from gross teenagers. AND i have a weird thing about foods and the smell some emit, so working at a restaurant is not going to cut it. But damn it all to hell if I am not in a rut. Damn it all to hell if a part of me is a little freaked out that these people are at least leaving Le Sad Store while I still apply to jobs that are nonexistent.
And I can't help but feel as if being here has just been one big mistake. That two years have come and gone in a blur and I have yet to achieve anything or make waves. And I wonder if I am really working hard at making things better? So yeah I won't work at a freaking chicken shack (no offense to anyone who does) but am a really making the most of my time here?
I just feel so aimless and without direction. And I have no idea what to do or where to go with all this....scared energy.
It's late. Maybe it's the sleep talking. Or the nerves.
2 comments:
well - why not do the peace corps?
it's not too late.
OR - what about one of those "teach english abroad" schemes? They always sound a little shady, but I've known people who have done it and it's not shady after all.
Think about it: teaching english to, i dunno, rich Thai kids in Thailand for a year. spending your time off on the beaches of southern thailand. or wherever.
that'd get you out of your rut.
This too, shall pass.
I hate to keep mentioning it, but the economy really does suck!!! I'm old enough to remember long lines at the Unemployment Department, etc. I know it probably doesn't help much, but you've got to stop thing ALL this is somehow your fault. If you were experiencing these sort of things in a Boom Cycle; i'd say, o.k. maybe she needs to look at herself. But gosh and golly, it really is a rocky, sucky time to be starting out. I think your going to have to realize, it will end, but maybe not as soon as you'd like.
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