In Limbo

When i get in one of my moods Radiohead is on complete rotation.

Today was officially the last day of class. Had to go to boring History discussion and then had an hour to spare so i hopped over to the Art Building to pick up the DVD for the movie i worked on....They were out. Then i headed to English tried to keep my eyes open, head outside to only bump into Mike who is happy that he finally has found something he is good at...CHEMISTRY.

I don't know why i became a little envious in that moment. I guess it's cause i wish i had something i was good at. I seem to like and want to do a lot of things, but when it actually comes to being good at something, i feel like i am falling flat.

I wish i could say i really LOVE this or i really am good at THAT. When in all honesty i dabble in a little bit of everything without really finding something i am good at.

This takes me back to when i was a kid, Morgan would bring home a new instrument every week from school. I mean seriously the teachers wanted him to play anything that every week he would come home with a flute or a saxophone, a clarinet and a trombone. Of course because Morgan may have severe ADD he would bring them home where they would remain under the couch until he had to bring them back on Friday. Until friday though i would wait til everyone was out of the house and play with the instruments. He brought like 5 of them home and everyone i played with, my favorite was probably the flute.

The point is that at present moment that is what i feel like. I am trying to find something i'm good at and go someplace from there. I thought i would have it figured out by now.

(Picture of my very wet pants and shoes after i tried unsuccessfully to jump over a puddle). I feel like i need to get away, i feel like mind needs to be cleared of all the puzzles that are filling it at the present moment. I just need to go someplace where no one knows me, no one's knows about the life i am leading now. I can just go and start from a blank slate. I figure that blank slate wil give me time to really figure out what i am good at.

To really find my passion. Cause thats what i'm lacking.

Drunk guy in english made us all proud when he said a very hilarious comment from the back row. I could see the faces of all the other people in our discussion class do the "he's always like that" smile. I shall miss him, along with Josh(aka the messiah). He is going on the exchange program next semester(he's been talking about it in our discussion class) which means his face will be greatly missed next year. Time to study. Exams for me on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. Then i am home until Tuesday when the Family and I will be going to grandma's house .

For some reason writing that sentence reminded me of an Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen straight to video movies. My cousin and Aunt, and little baby boggs are coming too. 5 days in a house full of relatives, that should be fun. And by fun, i mean i will spend those days having to take pictures of my brother and cousin do their "model" faces, while my mother and aunt discuss the latest family gossip, and my grandmother shuffle with a cane that she uses to intimate people on the street. Seriously.