Tuesday, July 18, 2006

You have been approved!!

Ever since I turned 18, credit card people have been sending me packets of mail about getting a credit card. They make it sound grand, free money! Now! You an get 2000! With a signature and a return address. Just check here and the sky will open up and rain money!

Unfortunately...What they do not happen to tell you during the mail advertisement is that credit cards are tempting, even for the best of us self controlled people. Though I don't fear being tempted, because lets be honest I'm pretty cheap even with money that isn't mine, I hate being forced to do something, or yet be told that it is the better good that I do something. Though I know credit cards probably will help with my nonexistent credit, my mom literally made me sign the damn paper.

And I don't need to get into how horrible my mom is in the financial aspect. But if I must...

It's not even that she is bad with money, because she is. It's not even that she tried to play "what happens if something happens to your father" card, because she did. It's not even that in that aspect of life she is pretty untrustworthy, because she is (we once had a trust fund for college....) But it's just that in every instance of my well being since I have graduated from college, she has been utterly WRONG. I mean wrong people. So wrong that I have suffered, mainly because I listen to her. I don't trust my own gut, so I listen to her and have failed miserably inturn. MISERABLY.

It was I who wanted her to go to the parent/student freshman orientation, it was she who decided against it. Three days later, I'm driving back cursing silently at her while eating a whopper.

It was her who had advised me to continue taking chemistry when I was sure that I couldn't pull my grade up. FAILED MISERABLY.

It was her who said coming back home would mean she would pay for all my tuition. 10grand later and she praising the loan people(who I have to pay back) for paying for my school(though she still tells people she is paying solely for it).

If me and my mother share anything in this world, it is our inability to trust our own gut. I want so badly for my finances, which is no finances at the present moment, to be solely in my hands. I feel like I have the best interest for myself, and kind of know what I a doing, and what I have to do to become independent. But I can't help but feel like this, along with numerous other things, are the thread that I need to cut so I don't get tangled up in so much of my families dependence on me. To succeed, to be happy, to get things going.

In other totally unrelated news I am volunteering as an activities coordinator at an old people's home. Did I mention that old people kind of freak me out. I hate being in the house all day, my brother has taking the car because he has a job and then stays out most of the night. My mom is at work and then to tired to do anything, and my intense ADD has made it very hard to write down a scene from my head onto paper. Blah

So the next best thing was to volunteer from something. I wanted to volunteer for the hospital, but the evil lady at the desk has made that very difficult in the past, and I would like to bypass her as much as possible. So I figured I could volunteer at AnMed to only find out I still have to go to the evil lady to apply. So the next best thing was...OLD PEOPLE?

She wants me to read for them and show them movies. I didn't mention that I only know contemporary books and my collection of movies involves Pirates, Zombies, and a certain Mr. Bean. If anyone has any suggestion, please let me know, or they will be listening to me for an hour read about a Priest in love with a possessed women(seriously) and end up watching Tales from the Crypt season 2.

I'm ashamed that I just type in "OLD PEOPLE" in the Amazon search menu. I have no clue what I'm doing. It didn't help when she said "the last young lady who was suppose to read for them didn't show up. They were so upset." I couldn't live with myself if I let down old people. SHAME.

She recommended Romance Novels, Nicholas Sparks(who I loathe) was a name she brought up often and then showed me a Bridges of Madison County(????) novel she had in her office.

NOOOOOOOOOO!

I get it, there at that age near the BIG ONE. But, do we have to kill them early with a Nicholas Sparks book, or movie.

recommendations please.

3 comments:

kittens not kids said...

old people don't necessarily want old books. you might - seriously - have some luck reading Harry Potter. The first book especially is fairly short and straightforward. You might try Diana Wynne Jones's novel Howl's Moving Castle (the main character is turned old by a spell - it's also my favorite book ever). How about short stories? You could get some classics - F Scott Fitzgerald, maybe. John Steinbeck also might be good, or Mark Twain. For more contemporary, and probably more for the ladies, I highly recommend Sandra Dallas, especially Buster Midnight's Cafe, which is a fantastic book.

as for movies - well, you know that better than I do. Show them the first Pirates of the Caribbean movie - I bet they'd love it.

awesome!! i'm glad you're volunteering. you are so less lazy than me it is staggering.

and congrats on the credit card. for the first five years I had one, I only used it when I had the cash to pay for it in the bank, or guaranteed in an upcoming paycheck.

sue said...

I admire you. I, sometime soon, will BE an "old people" and believe me, I'm not looking forward to it.

I'm with kyryna - just 'cause they're older doesn't mean they won't like newer things, like Harry Potter or some of the classics.

The Duke said...

Old people? go with classics. Only get it if the author is dead. Only view the movie if it came out when your mom was a teenager - gone with the wind, Dr Chivago, that type of deal.

Old people odd me out too... I think its because I am never around them.

Looks like its time to follow your gut, eh?!