Diamond in the Rough

Well I just had my meeting with my chemistry teacher, and though I didn't get any points added back on to my test(damn) I did learn something, which I guess is better than any silly old points(okay who am I kidding, she could of helped a girl out).

I remember when I was in high school, I took journalism in the 10th and 11th grade. Of course due to high school politics, the more people you knew in the class and the more popular you were the more likely your article would appear in an issue. Needless to say the only article of mine that was published was about fall fashion. Yeah. Me. Fashion. HA HA HA.

But I did almost get a really good piece added and the teacher loved it. The only advice she had for me was:

"right now this is a diamond in the rough, a little polishing and you will have a really good article"

It still wasn't added to the damn school newspaper, but since then it has been a comment that has always been in the back of my head. A diamond in the rough.

It seems to be this theme with me, and has snuggly become symbolic of my life. In English my teacher is always saying "polish it up". In math my professor is always describing problem solving as "a language which has to be universal for everyone to understand. Take the time to understand it before you approach it", he loves to say. Even in science it's this skill of recognizing, polishing, and even perfecting the material presented before you.

So while me and the uber dorky smart(but really nice) Chem professor are chatting it up about approaching my next exam better, she said the same thing in context to solving chemical problems. Looking through my test, it was simple errors that slowly built up to deduction points from hell. I read a question the way I wanted it to be read, ignored concepts and went straight for what I memorized, and didn't apply general understanding of the material to the test. It was a sloppy, unpolished mess, which accumulated into a bad grade, a bad paper(English), a article that wasn't published, but most of all it has cost me a better understanding and progression of who I am; a girl caught on the fringe of self discovery and acceptance.

Could it be that I am a diamond in the rough. That those small inconsistencies in my everyday life, where I ignore the big picture, look for shortcuts, avoid smoothing out those edges, have led me on the path of coming up short...and with poor results. It is something to think about, to approach, and try to correct. If not academically than personally. Because I'm getting sick of coming up short, of seeing before me the possibility of something GREAT and not being able to grasp it firmly and run with it.

But thats just a thought.


OMG!!! Short boy at library has a potential short girl love interest...and it ain't me. I walked in on a conversation(when he should have been working) with him and my boss, as he was discussing some girl his parents may or may not like. WTF. M*therF*er. Though I have no interest in him, I did like being the object of his affection. I mean who doesn't love being someones crush( well except Michael Douglas and that poor bunny). Dammit even he has a lady love, while I have...not even a crush to...well crush on.

A high semester of self discovery, a low semester of love interests. I mean even a dorky library dude who is BARELY 5'2 may be getting a girlfriend, while I am dodging library pervs who want to feel up young college girls. Come on fate what have I done to you. All I ask is for a nice boy to cuddle with...and who kind of looks like Sufjan Stevens, is that too much to ask for.

Time to FINALLY finish my anxiety drawing, and then do whatever I want because I don't have class tomorrow. WHOO HOO.

Apparently I'm suppose to vote or something tomorrow, that's what Gideon Yago told me to do on MTVU. It's the in. And I'm all about following trends.

Just kidding, I'm totally anxious about the whole thing, and might have to get Mike drive me to wherever the voting places are. I understand the significance of voting, but I hate when people (P.Diddy) shove it down your throat to no end.I want to yell "I GET IT" already "I'm going to vote. I PROMISE". For one day I guess I can put the importance of how our government is run ahead of whether Nicole Richie is bulimic, if Borat is the funniest man in the world, or who is going to be kicked off America's Next Top Model this week.

Just for a day though.