I have not abandoned this blog ( i could never do something like that), i've just been highly disillusioned, slightly depressed, and exhausted from my job search and writing endeavors.
It's stupid that you spend four years in college, earning a degree with limited ,though various, job experience but employers do not want to hire somebody who has recently graduated from college. Well sir, than what is the point of earning a degree?
I don't know what i was expecting when i moved here. But it most likely included finding a job right away. Excluding last week (because my mom was here) this week has been a total bust in the job market. No one has contacted me about any of the jobs i have applied to, and i am now a sitting duck with limited funds.
Having a job will a) put money in my pocket b) allow me to get out of this house and c) meet people my own age (because right now my BFF is a three year old).
I am most concerned about the money situation. I know any day now i will have to pay my first loan payment and that scares the shit out of me. Though i worked this summer to ensure that i would have the money needed for that first payment, i can't say anything about the 2nd.
There is something about this place that makes you feel like a total success or total failure. And i am feeling the effects of the latter. As a jobless, homeless (because i don't have my own apartment), moneyless, and car less college graduate with a social life that consist of watching Barney over and over again...i am not in the best of spirits.
My mom continues to cheer me up with her "have patience you just got there" speeches. But my optimism is waning. Fast. There are moments when i want to pack up and move back home. To my cats and big bed. I'm trying to remember the things that brought me here, but without something soon..i don't know.
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I don't know if this is encouraging or discouraging, but it can take up to six months (on average) to find a job after graduation. It's just a statistic, but it matches up pretty closely with what many people I know have experienced (those who didn't go directly to grad school or to places where they had held internships).
I think this song might help you out of your depression its a couple years old but hey I think its a cool song It's called The Middle by jimmy eat world hope it encourages you. and hope you like it well I'm off to do whatever it is I do see you in space and "don't write yourself of yet" (It's from the song)
my advice, if you really need money and are willing to deal with dullness, is to simply take a temp job as a receptionist or something. it's what i did, for about - oh jeez, eight months? after graduation. it's frustrating as hell, and you feel tricked and cheated ("I have a COLLEGE DEGREE! MY MOM ALWAYS SAID I COULD DO ANYTHING I WANTED!"), but i absolutely promise you, it WILL be temporary. and temping gets you money without forcing you to have a lot of responsibility or anything.
also, email that woman whose info I sent you. it'll at least be a positive move. and you'll get to have lunch with one of the editors of Harry Potter!
chin up, old sock! it WILL all work out. this is all part of the process. if you need to talk, you know where to find me.
One more thing to everyone else's good advice - a friend of mine was in the same predicament as you, could not find a job, and the loan companies understand. If you are unemployed you can send them a form and they will defer your payments until you find a job.
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