I'd first like to say that yesterday we got a new addition to the Hughes family. His name is Elliot Bradley Hughes to be exact and my mom, brother and I are over the moon with excitement.
I was in the supermarket when I got the news. A friend and I from work thought we'd embark on a simple trip to the supermarket upstairs to gather things to make beef stew. Well so his girlfriend can make beef stew and so we could eat it this weekend. We gathered all the necessary items except for some slow cooker seasoning thing we couldn't find.
We were in there for an hour (I kid you not). Going up and down every aisle with no luck. We asked the 16 year old employees where we could find it, but they all looked at us in sad confusion. We petitioned customers to help us but it's new york and everyone sort of gave us the stank eye.
By the 45 minute mark we were both hungry, cranky and annoyed. I came up with the brilliant idea to call my mom because moms know where everything is.
Friend: But she lives in South Carolina
Me: Doesn't matter. Moms have a weird sixth sense about grocery stores. She'll know what aisle we need to look in trust me.
So i dial her up but she answered in a whisper like one of those ladies from a lifetime movie being held captive but the dangerously attractive thug (i spent a great chunk of my weekend watching lifetime. I apologize). Then she said "hey, I'm in the hospital" which immediately sent me into a near panic even though we have been on baby watch since my brothers girlfriend was admitted to the hospital on Monday.
"She had the baby Beckett. You're an aunt!"
There a pause from me, general happiness and baby cooing in the back, and then a growl from my stomach.
"That's awesome mom. I can't wait to hear all about it when I get home.... but can you tell me where I could buy beef stew seasoning in a supermarket....."
And that is how I will remember his day of birth. He'll always remind me of Beef Stew. Welcome to the family Kid.
I've been a a little off this week. Nervous, anxious and full of snark. I have hit a wall with the job search and am utterly frustrated with my lack of money situation. I haven't heard anything back from the places I applied to and am sulking in a general feelings of incompetency. I know I am not suppose to take this to heart. But I need to be making more money in the next few months. It is as simple as that.
These general life anxieties have made me very tired and this week has a big blur of trying to make it to the next day unscathed. My naps are long, my moods are a swinging and the cold weather is not helping. It's suppose to snow again tomorrow (something I look forward to) but I have to close tomorrow night (something I do not look forward to) so traveling in the ice and snow will not be fun.
I remain optimistic that things will work themselves out. This brand new edition to our family represents that in some way. I just don't know how much longer I have to endure being a broke before it does. I sometimes find myself highly envious of people for the ease with which they seem to accomplish things.
There is a kid at work who we call the golden boy because though he has only been working there for four months, he is already a head cashier. The idea that he, only 19, could be making more money than me is heartbreaking. Not only that but i am offended when high school students apply to Le Sad Store because it puts my job in prospective even though we rarely hire them.
Anyway, Golden Boy is uber attractive. He is James Franco. Not even a little bit. Not even sort of kind of. If you've seen James Franco in Howl or the James Dean this is what this kid looks like. And knowing James Franco track record I wouldn't be surprised if I was working with the actual James Franco. Golden Boy is uber nice and smart and he carries a moleskin journal in his back pocket. He is swoon worthy and confidant, the good looks play a part, and within a month he was promoted to a position that only 2 other people (both over 23. both who've been employed by Le Sad Store for quite some time: Blue being one of them) have.
And he's so full of life. And that's not because he's 19. It's because this is a kid who has never faced rejection (at least in my mind). He's the sort of guy who has always gotten his way. And sometimes it is frustrating to talk to him, even though he is a class A guy. Because when someone has never heard the words 'no' their perspective can be a little to Carpe Diem for me. I am all about seizing the day but I have had to work for everything I have ever wanted with iron fists.
I am and will always been the underdog. A role I am proud and frustrated with.
Anyway.
I need a break from the stress of life at the moment. I have a day off today and will spend it reading nerdy books about butterflies. My newest obsession. I finally mailed off the Mix Cd's today because by Tuesday I meant Wednesday and by Wednesday I meant Thursday and by Thursday I meant "get out of bed and mail these things off woman". So they are finally in the mail a few days later than I had planned but still on there way.
Time to relax
~Becks
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