Social Butterfly.

I have been a very busy little lady these days.

I wish I could contribute my sudden flurry of activity to my awesome new job! But that has not been the case. In fact I don't think I got the job at the literary agency.

A couple of days ago, because I continue to search for a job despite this recent interview, I stumbled across a re posting of the position i interviewed for on the interweb. On the same damn website I saw it on two weeks ago. No lie.

Last Thursday the post was removed, which gave me hope that my interview was a successful. That lady luck was finally on my side and Possible New Boss was so impressed by my awesomeness that no more candidates needed to be interviewed for the position.

But on Monday, I came across the re posting of the job opening. Same description, same contact information, same agency. Needless to say my frustration level hit an all time high.

Marie has been really supportive lately, reminding me that maybe the company just wants to shop around some more before hiring someone immediately. This is true. I mean hiring someone is not as easy as liking them. You have to be sure they can do the job well and to be honest I wouldn't want to work for a place that wasn't a 100% sure of my competency (funny coming from a girl who just a week ago was freaking out about my competency). But the fact that they are still shopping around means that they are not sure about me or the other candidates who interviewed for the position. That while I may have been awesome I am not a shoe in.

So while I have not received a rejection letter or email I don' think i will be the new assistant at with this agency. That also means that I too am still on the market for a new job. Damn. I've applied to three jobs this week and hope to hear something back soon. I don't want to wallow too much in this latest stumble, the big D is a terrible thing.

In the meantime though I have been trying to have more of a social life than I do now. It is both distracting me from the stress that is job hunting and lifting my spirits more than i could have imagined. On Monday I hung out with a friend from work where we lamented about the urgency for which we need a better job that pays more. On Tuesday my aunt took me out for a birthday lunch (two weeks a little late but whatever) where we ate fondue and cheesecake. And today i hung out with a friend from my childhood who I have not seen in 15 years. It was surreal.

Back when I was a sophomore in college, a pre-med major and living a floor down from Art Boy I received a facebook email from a girl I knew in Elementary school. She was literally my first school and real life friend. On the first day of kindergarten she was playing with the building blocks all by herself. I walked up to her, asked her if I could play too and from there she was my best friend.

When I conjure up my memories of childhood she makes up a huge chunk of those days. She was an awesome first friend, with bright red hair and freckles. We were like sisters. Her parents took us to movies and dinner and I spent countless weekends at her house. I remember never wanting to leave her house, not because I disliked my home life so much, but because her family welcomed me into theirs as if I were a part of the clan.

When I moved to a new town in the 3rd grade our friendship did not survive the transition. Not because I didn't want to be her friend anymore but because when you're young you don't have a concept of staying in touch. Your friends are your friends because they are people you are always around. Not necessarily because you realize you enjoy being around them. But as time has passed, I realize she was truly a pivotal person in me being a happy, well rounded kid. She was the person I got along with more than others. And our friendship has been the basis of what I want from people now.

As soon as I moved up here, I've often thought of reconnecting with her. I mean being someones friend on facebook and interacting with them on a daily basis can be quite different. A lot of my 'friends' from childhood have become people I would not hang out outside of social networking sites. While their faces are familiar the lives they live are so distant from mine we are worse off than strangers.

But she and I have kept in touch since first reconnecting over the web. We have made attempts to hang out together and meet up since I moved up here a few years ago. And finally after 15 years we did so today. And while it was quite nerve racking in the beginning, 'what do you say to someone you haven't seen in 15 years', we had an amazing time. We got some drinks at Starbucks and then went to a diner to grab lunch.

We have a lot in common along with distinct experiences that give us character. We found it easy to pick up right where we left off from and we both found common ground in our general excitement at reconnecting. She is quirky and real and hella funny and I like that we both admitted our nervousness.

It was weird sitting across from the person you only have childhood memories of. I have spent the better part of my 'adult' life reminiscing about my childhood. When i moved to south carolina I spent more time wondering what my life would have been like if we would have stayed.

But She did not have the ideal Middle School and High School experience I spent hours conjuring up during my darkest days in the south. High School was awful she had little to no friends and suffers from depression and anxiety. I regret now that I didn't enjoy my high school experience more because of my illogical assumptions. That my life would have been better in some way. But to hear her experience some of the same things I did in a place that I put on such a pedestal was...difficult. Good to hear but difficult.

We spent the rest of our day walking around and talking. We kept doing the 'what do you feel about____" game. We discussed everything from the Godfather to Nickleback. I now have to read Harry Potter and she is going to check out Doctor Who. I had so much fun I thought I'd imagined it all when I finally got home.

I'm happy to finally have a friend outside of work. Even if the friend is someone I've technically already been friends with. But in all honesty it's a little stressful only having my co-workers to hang out with especially when they are the only people I know in this town. Reconnecting with her feels right. Like whatever friendship comes of this will only be stronger because of our shared past yet different upbringing. We are planning more outings in the near future which I am generally looking forward to. She has a huge sweet tooth and knows a lot more about the city than I do.

I am now of course exhausted due to my week of activities. I plan on washing clothes tomorrow and reading Jane Eyre because I really want to see the movie. For some reason I keep getting Charlotte Bronte and Jane Austen all kinds of mixed up but Jane Eyre looks really amazing and I am a person who can't watch the movie unless I have read the book first. It's like the law.

So far I am not turned off by the book (which often happens when I even crack open an Austen book) and think I may be able to finish the lengthy thing by the end of the week. Angie was suppose to come down next weekend but I really don't have the money (or energy) to entertain anyone. So I asked her if we could reschedule, in April maybe when I have my shit together. She said it was cool which means I now have a weekend to myself because I requested those two days off weeks in advance.

Because Jane Eyre is playing only in select theaters I was thinking that I could go down to the city that weekend and see it. I want to grab breakfast first at the cafe I'm obsessed with and then watch Jane fall in love with Mr. Rochester (I think that's his name) at the theater near by.

I'd like a day to myself again. And I only feel a tab bit horrible for ditching plans with Angie in favor of hanging out by myself. Not that I haven't enjoyed these new social excursions but a day to myself would be nice.

Seriously.