Don't me wrong, I am totally excited that a month after one of the worst interview experiences EVER, i have another job prospect on the horizon. It a nice editorial job that pays well over my asking price with a reputable company that deals with academic, nerdy, scholarly text (which I find interesting). But the part of me that is excited is only meet with the other side of me that knows this will be another 'i really need this job, I hope they offer me the position, please don't let this be another disappointment' couple of weeks.
I feel like i have enough publishing knowledge to talk about books and the market and my interest in their publishing house with out a problem...but I am seriously so burnt out from this job hunting experience (and interviewing process) that I feel a little off my game this week. Hell a lot off my game. And I am seriously considering taking a small, two week, break from applying to jobs just so I can regroup and gain the energy again to put myself out there.
On Monday I woke up with another huge ass spider bite on my arm, that was red and swollen and an eye sore to everyone at work. Because I spent last week in physical pain (felt like i had the flu) and Monday with an itchy arm, I've been on meds to restore my body to a functioning being again. Instead the effect has not been great; I feel sleepy, cranky, lethargic and besides myself with how drained I am. I wish I could take a week off from things for a while and just lounge in my room all day and sleep.
But life seems to be in motion suddenly. I am no longer at the starting line waiting for the whistle or shot to fire. Things are happening and actions need to be made from all angles and I have no other choice but to get out of this weird funk and be a part of the changes happening around me. Recently everything has felt so exciting and scary at the same time, and I wish i was in a better mood to handle it all.
I simply need to be able to handle it all.
I've already picked my interview outfit(because in the last three years I have acquired enough pieces where I don't have to buy anymore business clothes) and printed out all the necessary documents. I'm preparing enough to ask relevant questions about their company and the position being offered. And if all else fails and things don't go as well as I wanted (because that too is a possibility), I have mapped out a route to the nearest bakery in walking distance to their building.... that sells tasty cupcakes for me to buy.
Oh yeah, I'm a girl who knows how to prioritize.
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