The Face that Hopefully saved the night.

So no, this isn't going to become a blog where i post all the hot celebrities that i come across. This man over there, actually plays a pivotal role in my entry today.

His name is Eduardo Noriega. He is from Spain. Has been in a lot of Movies in Spain. And is extremely attractive(though this is the only pic i could get of him, because well the internet sucks).

I first witnessesd his hotne...i mean theatrical talents in The Devils Backbone, of course he was absolutely insane in that movie, and i thought he was not so hot, until i saw the "Behind the Scenes" stuff and seemingly before my eyes, this monster transformed into a soft spoken, face not in a evil frown, man. And i fell in love.

Last night i was attempting to study for my Biology Exam. Wasn't going to well...i was distracted cause i had spent the whole day with my mom yesterday, i ran into Art boy two times( we have to sign in our guest with the Ra's who sit in the front lobby, they are diferent people like every two hours sitting in front, mainly doing homework or talking to friends. So when my mom called saying she was outside i hurried down stairs into the lobby where Art boy was sitting with his friend who his friend who was at the front desk. He was in his pajamas...damn i'm getting off subject), Cops was on, and i kept listening to Riverdance on the Internet. So when my cell was ringing and i saw Marie's name, i didn't think it was important enough to call back. She left a message though, and my cell phone wouldn't stop playing "Daysleeper"by REM until i listened to it. So i listened to her message and she didn't sound to well. I mean her voice is usually chirpy and excited about something, but there was a note of sadness in her voice. So i convinced myself that i should call her. I mean we are friends, i think we even have the title of Best Friends on our extremely good days.

The difference with me and Marie is that she is very extroverted. I mean she talks to anybody that will listen. But she's brash and critical and not many people like her because of that. She can break a person down, if they don't have a strong backbone. In highschool i think everyone hated her, and didn't really understand why i hung out with her. She was my first friend when i moved there, she was the only one who said hi to me on my first day of school, so i was her friend. I mean dispite me sometimes disliking her like everyone else, she wasn't fake and trying to be something she wasn't. She's extremely smart, and has a good heart, you just have to get past the tough exterior. So when i talked to her and heard thaty exterior gone, and this sadness, i was like "what the hell happened".

Apparently her life has become some Soap Opera. Okay not a Soap Opera but what happened on Friday was very dramatic for Marie's sake.

Boys. Boys. Boys. Why do we have problems with them. I've never had a serious boyfriend. And by serious i mean that i've never gone out with the boys who ask me out. Which leaves Beckett 0 on the boyfriend chain. All the boys who ask me out, where boys who i had no interest in. As in the freshman, the boy in chorus, the football player, the actor, and the kid who got left back. Doesn't mean i don't want a boyfriend, but i'm not ready to get in a relationship with a boy i feel so-so about. Marie is the same exact way, because she is so brash, she kinds of frightens them away. She likes them to be rough and tough, and able to brace the frontier if he has too( i call the boy she is attracted to mountain men, not because they are older, hairy and live in the backwoods. Just because they have to be tall, muscular, hardworking, like a cowboy in Wyoming or something). Think Wolverine, sort of.

So about a week ago a boy who she has known for a long time called and said he was going to be in town for the weekend, and that they should hang out. This boy knows her cousin, and because her cousin and her are close, she naturally got to know him well. His name is Devin. He was in the army(which meets her has to be hardworking and muscular traits), he's 6'3, has blue eyes, and jet black hair. Now Marie never says anyone is hott, i mean Brad Pitt looks like an albino to her (no offense to anyone who is an albino, just that Marie is deathly afraid of albino's so anything she compares to it, is her way of saying she doesn't like the certain thing very much). He's 22, and home for the weekend, he must have a little party streak in him too though, because Marie asked him not to get hammered before taking her to the park for a picnic or something. So i'm thinking "Marie is on a date with a boy" WHAT?. I was a little shocked. So friday night comes and he picks her up at about 5 in the afternoon. I guess there going to the picnic while daylight is falling or something.

They get to the woods, and i don't know if it was a picnic was with her and him or more than them, but she makes it seem as if they were just there. I mean they were in the woods for goodness sake, why would you go to the woods? Marie's a smart kid, but like me our street smarts aren't up to par. She says that he starts "acting like an ass" and that she notices that he has been drinking. She doesn't go into much detail about how he was acting like an ass, but apparently he was so bad, that she decides to leave and walk back. She didn't bring her car because he offered to drive(redlight), then when the get there he's stone drunk(redlight), and then i don't know if he was making advances(redlight), going a little to far(redlight), whatever it was Marie(who likes to be in charge of situations) didn't so she left, walking back to where they parked.

When she was walking away from him in his drunken stupor, he yelled her name. Running up to her, and grabbing her roughly on the arm. Now Marie has fair skin, which brushes easily. But he must have grabbed her so hard that it made her swing around, where she SLAPPED THE HELL OUT OF HIM. I mean those boxing lessons must have come into affect because she hit him hard. I guess he stayed in the woods after that, because she called her cousin and he picked her up. That wasn't even the end of it.

The next day DEVIN called and had the nerve to yell at her. From what i got from the conversation he called and beraded her on hitting him. She then went to yelling at him on the phone for the next hour, which put her in a bad mood for the rest of the day. I felt like complete crap cause i was avoiding her call earlier that day, and later that night. But i made up for it by being a ear she could relay all this information on that she did not tell her new friends. She was so upset, and i must have been more than what she was telling me, because Marie can handle herself in every situation, better than i can or anyone else for all i know. But i guess because she had so much respect and liked this guy so much, she didn't suspect him of "being an ass" .i didn't press the "what did he do Marie" question, cause i may have driven the next two hours to personally go kick his ass(which would be hard since i don't have a car), or at least watch as my brother kick his ass. So my brother isn't 6'3, he has ass kicking abilities though.

So to DEVIN: YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE!!!!

I tried to cheer her up, by telling her that Mike is still really frightening to look at and that he's failing his classes. I told her about Art boy and my non crushing on him anymore but she sounded sad about that too, so i told her that i still had a crush on him, and that he's still fine and hott, and that i saw him in his Pj's, that made her happy. And then i spent the rest of the night i should have been studying, sending her a huge email of hott actors, including Eduardo. He's strong, dark, handsome, has amazing bo--accent, and though appearances do lie, seems to be a gem. I hope it worked, or at least brought a smile to her face.

It's distrubing to know that i have known so many people who have been sexuallly assualted, and not that Marie was( i don't really know what happened) but regardless it's scary. I have never been assualted. I mean there has been a leg touch or two that were weird, and there was that one time where this dude who i talked to in the hall touched by butt. It was the 8th grade and we had to wait outside our classes until the bell rang. So you had about 50 students from various classes standing outside in the hall. I talked to this boy who would just randomly come and talk to me. I thought he was weird but trying to be nice i talked to him casually. One day he was standing real close to me, and kept asking me if we were friends. I said "sure i guess" and he was like "that's good" and patted my butt. Like he owned me or something. I pushed him away and ran to the bathroom. I know they say that most women don't report rapes, and i was always like "i would totally report if i was raped" but staring into the mirror after this boy just touched my butt, i felt so much shame. As if i had brought it upon myself, maybe i was too nice, not forceful enough. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it by telling a teacher, i didn't want some drawn out thing. And than that's when i realized why people don't tell. It's out of feeling like you did something wrong.

Of course i never talked to him after that, and he later went on to have sex with some girl in the staircase in highschool, getting her knocked up. She was the most religously virginal girls too, not anymore.

I mean even if we haven't been sexually assualted we know someone who has been. I've knew a girl who was raped by her father and brother, and in my senior year my friend Lauren was assualted by a boy in a gym locker room. I mean i can't even go into detail without it being too graphic.

What is up with this power struggle. I mean clearly it's about power and not even about the act.

It's frigthening to think that 1/4 woman will be sexually assualted in their lifetime.

That someone feels that they have the right to take away the very thing we own. Damn.

So i hope she's feeling a little better, i wish i knew the whole scope of the story. I promised her that we would hang in the nearest big city, and meet some nice respectable boys. Who have accents, and are really smart.

It's so weird getting older, you almost feel obligated to prove that you can get a boyfriend. That without one you are this weird person who will live a life of being a spinster. But i'll wait for the right one to come by. I don't want to rush into anything. This whole incident with Marie, has just reminded me of how vulnerbale i really am. like what would i have done? I don't want to even imagine. I wish i could say i would have done the same thing, but i don't know.

I have always been babied. I mean my brother is two years older than me, so in school he was always there to frighten away the boys (to my dismay most times), i have cousins too who are basically the same way, and i would never let a boy meet my father. I don't even think i let him meet my mother she is so protective over me. So i don't know what i would do in that sitaution, cause i'm so use to someone being there to prevent me from harm's way.

Which leave me vulnerable to all kinds of attacks. Physical and emotional. Maybe i'm stronger than i think, i like to think so.