I'm sick.
Damn.
I woke up alright, a tab bit tired but for the most part feeling pretty optimistic about the day.
As soon as i get outside to the this very cold day, i began to feel like i was struck by a bus.
Headache, stuffy nose, and muscles began to hurt that i didn't even know existed. To me that's the worst part of getting sick is that all of a sudden muscles you never knew you had begin to ache. I was literally working today and went "is that a muscle in my lower back aching?, Where the hell did that come from"
I hate being sick. I mean i can deal with having allergies and walking about with a tissue all day but feeling physically drained because my head, nose, and apparently back are hurting all at once takes it toll. It does give me an excuse to complain to Mike and have him feel all sympathetic. Of course by sympathetic i mean he tries extra hard not to be an ass.
I guess the part of childhood i miss the most is that when you are sick you can lay around, have your parents make you soup and of course miss school...which was my favorite. But now since I'm on my own all i get to do is kind of lay around, buy soup and eat it in class, and listen to my teacher go on and on for what seems like hours about Math.
Damn.
I woke up alright, a tab bit tired but for the most part feeling pretty optimistic about the day.
As soon as i get outside to the this very cold day, i began to feel like i was struck by a bus.
Headache, stuffy nose, and muscles began to hurt that i didn't even know existed. To me that's the worst part of getting sick is that all of a sudden muscles you never knew you had begin to ache. I was literally working today and went "is that a muscle in my lower back aching?, Where the hell did that come from"
I hate being sick. I mean i can deal with having allergies and walking about with a tissue all day but feeling physically drained because my head, nose, and apparently back are hurting all at once takes it toll. It does give me an excuse to complain to Mike and have him feel all sympathetic. Of course by sympathetic i mean he tries extra hard not to be an ass.
I guess the part of childhood i miss the most is that when you are sick you can lay around, have your parents make you soup and of course miss school...which was my favorite. But now since I'm on my own all i get to do is kind of lay around, buy soup and eat it in class, and listen to my teacher go on and on for what seems like hours about Math.
Bummer.
On Wednesday i sign up for classes and despite having no idea what i am going to take in the fall I'm pretty excited that i am going to be a Senior. Everyone is right, before you know it college is over and you are inserted into the "kind of" real world.
My "kind of" real world will hopefully be in Philadelphia. Part of the reason i am heading to Philly in May is because it is where i really want to live after graduation. After my first not so successful college stay in Philadelphia i have opted to give it another try in this city of Brotherly Love. Even though i was only there for a few days i think they may be right in calling it the city of Brotherly Love. I kind of felt at ease there, but i was just not use to being so far away from home, and i must admit i was a little scared, which made coming home due to mix up of financial aid was an easy choice. But that choice has been one i have regretted for the last three years.
Slowly i am letting my regrets fade away. I'm not into asking "what if" so much anymore. They can drag you down and drive you crazy. I am becoming content with who i am rather than wondering who i would have been if i hadn't moved so many years ago. But a persistent regret is my whole Philadelphia fiasco, and wanting desperately to return to try things out again.
On Wednesday i sign up for classes and despite having no idea what i am going to take in the fall I'm pretty excited that i am going to be a Senior. Everyone is right, before you know it college is over and you are inserted into the "kind of" real world.
My "kind of" real world will hopefully be in Philadelphia. Part of the reason i am heading to Philly in May is because it is where i really want to live after graduation. After my first not so successful college stay in Philadelphia i have opted to give it another try in this city of Brotherly Love. Even though i was only there for a few days i think they may be right in calling it the city of Brotherly Love. I kind of felt at ease there, but i was just not use to being so far away from home, and i must admit i was a little scared, which made coming home due to mix up of financial aid was an easy choice. But that choice has been one i have regretted for the last three years.
Slowly i am letting my regrets fade away. I'm not into asking "what if" so much anymore. They can drag you down and drive you crazy. I am becoming content with who i am rather than wondering who i would have been if i hadn't moved so many years ago. But a persistent regret is my whole Philadelphia fiasco, and wanting desperately to return to try things out again.
So even though me and my mom will be hitting up Penn's Landing/Museums/The Market i really wanted another trip to show that i am ready to go back. That three years later i am not the scared 18 year but the brave kind of scared 21 year old.
Philadelphia has kind of become my gold at the end of the rainbow and I try to remember that so i have a complete sense of where i am going and how to get there. I love Philadelphia i just hope it loves me back.
Must study and get some soup for this bloody cold.
Oh...and this is totally unrelated but NBC cancelled my guilty pleasure "The Black Donnelley's" I can't even begin to explain how heart broken i am that i won't be able to see Jonathan Tuckers beautiful face every Monday.
4 comments:
if you move to philadelphia we will be Pennsylvania Girls together!
what is it that you want to DO in Philly - med school? lurking around and eating vegan cheesesteak (this was my philly experience)?
feel better. i'm STILL snuffly as hell from my cold from two weeks ago.
Awww...feel better.
What is it with shows getting cancelled without even a clue? I mean, the TV guide I get in my SUNDAY paper still had it in there! Arrgghhh!
hello from the other side of the Dark ;)
I still owe you some noodles my good friend. Try and get better wonder if customs would open it up if i did send ya some.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Ryan.
Thanks for the eye-candy. (I'm married, I'm not blind). And hope you feel better...this cold weather is driving me crazy. It's going to snow on Thursday here.
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