Screaming my head off into a pillow.
I may just have the most financially retarded(*inept*) mother in the whole entire universe. No offense to any mentally challened people b/c i know retarded is a degragatory word, but seriously my mom may just be financially retarded(*inept*). I mean my hands shaken b/c i am just so fed up of having to compensate for someone's lack of whatever.
So i've taken out three loans to pay for my school. I may just go to the most cheapiest schools in the whole United States, i gave up going to Pennsylvania for this crappy school, with it's crappy people, and mediocre education b/c she promised it would be easier and i wouldn't have to worry. Guess what, that isn't the case.
My deferrment was 1500 a month. Way expensive so i got it down to 1100 but taking another loan. My mom said that was too expensive so i got it down again by taken out another 2000 loan, getting my deferrment to 785 a month. Cheap as Hell, about the same we were paying last year. So i call her today to tell her the great news and she (after telling me that 700 would be a awesome deferrment) says that she doesn't have the money for friday and can i possibly take out another loan to get it down to some ridiculous price that someone in a worse off position can pay for.
WHAT THE HELL HAS SHE BEEN DOING SINCE AUGUST.
Wouldn't the smart thing to do, is put money aside every paycheck so when the 16th of the month rolls around you have the money. And then she wants me to take out another loan. Promising that she will help me pay it back.
I DON"T TRUST MY MOM.
I am so angry right now, like how much more can i do, before someone (meaning her) puts in the effort so i don't have a heartattack when i am 19 years old. I can't even trust my parents, i am so fed up with them and every other negative person who has infected my life. I want to scream to the heavens about why i have to go through all this shit. Like what horrible thing did i do in my past life to be iinvolved with all these people i can't rely on, and who drive me insane.
And then people wonder why i am guarded,b/c at this point the only person i can trust is myself.
3 comments:
you sure do have alot of stress in your life.
i like how you choose your words, ie retarded, yet explin why you used it as to not offend anyone.perhaps the use of inept would be better, lol.
both of our mothers have that in common somewhat,(Money problems)another long story.
just remember...Cant Rain all the time.
DD
I know...i was so angry i couldn't think of the word at the time, so the first thing that popped in my head was retarded. I gotta remember inept next time
is there a link anywhere to take that personality test ?
im curiuos to see what i may be. :)
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