I hate Love

Love is a weird concept. It causes people to totally change and behave irrationally. I think it sucks away the indivual and merges the two peope into some unrecongnizable force that you try to stay away from in all respect.

I remember in high school i was friends with this girl named Jessica and i knew a boy named Brnadon. Jessica was a quirky, art driven girl and we managed to drove creative inspiration off each other. Brandon was a smart, computer driven guy. Very formal and kind of boring.

Somehow in this weird fusion, they started dating. Together they were this unplesant person. He became all emotional and non robotic self, and she became the a smothering , kissy face girlfriend. Who was always there.

I think love changes people. I think they lose a sense of themselves to please their significant other. And for those purposes i hate love. I don't understand it. Everyone wants to be in love, to hold hands, and have a "meaningful" relationship with somebody. Your friends become outlines of the person you knew, their views, perpectives, and life plans change when the "L" word comes into play.

It's a double edge sword. I think love can be a good thing. And clearly not only the kind of Mush mush love. Family love, friend love, animal love. Either way Love is this emcompassing thing that consumes us. And Why? because we desparetly want to feel understood. We definately are looking for the comfort, and safety that person or animal(just in case you are the lady wiht 20 cats in her house) provides us.

As in mother, she loves me dearly. Love which drives her to worry obsessively about my well being. She's statring to notice that i don't have many friends. I think it worries her. And my love love, constantly leaves me reassuring that i'm okay, even when i'm not.

Friend love: In which we depend soley on them for support. We are almost defined by them . How many of us have stated "i have the best friends in the world and without them i don't know where i would be". Hmm...

Animal love: is just our need for that unconditional love. Some of us relate to them more than humans. In essense i can't say much about that because i have 2 cats.

Is that like the human race whole objective. Are we just suppose to grow up, find somebody, and make badies and that's it. Is that love. Or is it just that few moments of love that keeps people searching for it.

You know...everything seems perfect, the world is beautiful, kisses in the morning, strolls at night, i love you's at just the right moments...but that doesn't last. Am i too naive to think so. But it doesn't last, somewhere along those lines, Life happens, and that is the destruction of love.

Not every ending is going to be like Garden State. We aren't going to meet our Muse who changes our life, and such and such.We are all just going to be this soul on continually search to fill whats empty. And though love is part of it, it can't be all of it. It's not what gets us through the day. It shouldn't be what makes us soley happy.

I like love when it's normal, when monatiety sets in, when i love you's become common place but still important, when there isn't this effort to keep it perfect, when it's pure and true, and not this contrived happiness that isn't real. That's what life and love is.