I'm Breaking Through

This journal thing is kind of fun. I feel like i'm breaking through to some stuff, by writing my thoughts down. Anyway

last night was technically my first day at work. But i was a pro at the register. Okay so i screwed up sometimes, and i may have been a little slow with the change. But i got my first tip last night, sold a lot of food, and talked to the customers as if we were long lost friends. I use to be an actor, okay so i was only in a couple of school plays, but it was something i pursued when i was 12, so i think i deserve the title of actor. When i am up at the register it is as if i am on stage, i am acting to each and every customer who comes up to the counter by the way they are. The dorky, nerdy type i will pull out the semi big words and book reference. The jocks i will challenge them to buy the larger meal, because it is more hearty, the ladies, i will smile and be kind of coy, and the older people i will put on my angelic face, smile, and use polite phrases. It is all a big act for me, and needless to say it went well and i killed it. My boss says that i will pull in a lot of money to the place, once again a reference to my face which people seem to like. They think that i am cute and the cuter the act i play the more people come in, buy food, sit down and eat instead of taking out, and hopefully the more tips i get, even though i don't think cashiers get tips. He said i did a good job, as he counted the money, so my first night went well i guess.

Classes start tomorrow(finally), and i'm excited to just get it started. Let's get this over with already, so test can start, A's will be presented to moi, breaks will come, i will get my apartment, car, summer will come, i'll be home for the summer, summer school, study abroad, NYU for a semester, more summer school, graduate in December, Philadelphia, hopefully med school. I've always been the person who pre-plans everything. It's sickening that i live by this daily planner called my life. I always feel that if i get to this point n my life then i will be happy, and i think that is why i set this plans for myself. To give me something to look foward too down the line, but it takes away from the spontenity which is life. Which could really just be depriving me of...something.