There are many misconception about college, which is why i think shows that try to document college life end up failing(even though the show Undeclared was an awesome show). I remember when felicty came out. I was in the 6th or 7th grade, and i thought "that is how i want college to be". I wanted to be the curly head, felicity who was embarking on this journey of college. What a Jip.
From my experiences college has not been like that. I swear i must be the only person in the world incapable of making a friend in college. If i wasn't such a loner, i may have jumped out of the window a year back. For me ever since i was younger i had visions of what college would be like. And of course they haven't panned out that way.I Feel that is more sad than they way they have turned out, just the fact that my expectations of these experiences in general have not been good.
It all stems from me not being the person i figured i would be at 19. I know 19, not an age where i am suppose to have it all figured out, but i thought at least i would have had experiences that would have me saying "well, won't do that again". Instead i feel caged in my own fear of rejection from my peers. As with the hall situation, i figure from the moment i step into a room, i will be labeled the misfit, outsider, quiet girl, who has no friends. And before anyone can make those preceptions about me, i confirm them by hiding in a corner, with a lost puppy look on my face.
Plus, this must just be on televison, because i have never had a male RA. I mean i see male RA's but they do not live on the hall with us. And most of them do not look as hott as Scott Foley. The even mere mention of Scott Foley being hott should give you a visually on the male Ra's i have encountered. My only friend in college did so horrible last semester i think he may have left school, or at least been booted. I mean he failed Math, Biology, and i think English. I hope this year is good.
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